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Wednesday, August 31, 2005

e' sporean blogs: Current Status

ZuLdaniaL Listening to: -Empty Playlist-

Busy... Busy... Busy...

Do come back another time for updates...

Webmaster,
ZuLdaniaL
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Saturday, August 27, 2005

e' sporean blogs: Daniel Powter - Bad Day

ZuLdaniaL Listening to: Daniel Powter - Bad Day

the song thats been singing in my head ever since ismail let me hear the song on his handphone... thumbs up.. i like i like.....

Where is the moment we needed the most

You kick up the leaves and the magic is lost

They tell me your blue skies fade to grey

They tell me your passion's gone away

And I don't need no carryin' on

You stand in the line just to hit a new low

You're faking a smile with the coffee you go

You tell me your life's been way off line

You're falling to pieces everytime

And I don't need no carryin' on

Cause you had a bad day

You're taking one down

You sing a sad song just to turn it around

You say you don't know

You tell me don't lie

You work at a smile and you go for a ride

You had a bad day

The camera don't lie

You're coming back down and you really don't mind

You had a bad day

You had a bad day

Well you need a blue sky holiday

The point is they laugh at what you say

And I don't need no carryin' on

You had a bad day

You're taking one down

You sing a sad song just to turn it around

You say you don't know

You tell me don't lie

You work at a smile and you go for a ride

You had a bad day

The camera don't lie

You're coming back down and you really don't mind

You had a bad day
(Oh.. Holiday..)

Sometimes the system goes on the brink

And the whole thing turns out wrong

You might not make it back and you know

That you could be well oh that strong

And I'm not wrong

So where is the passion when you need it the most

Oh you and I

You kick up the leaves and the magic is lost

Cause you had a bad day

You're taking one down

You sing a sad song just to turn it around

You say you don't know

You tell me don't lie

You work at a smile and you go for a ride

You had a bad day

You've seen what you like

And how does it feel for one more time

You had a bad day

You had a bad day
Had a bad day Had a bad day

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Friday, August 26, 2005

e' sporean blogs: 8th Wonder of the World

HOT NEWS! HOT NEWS!

Have u heard???

Years ago, a giant tornado has lifted an entire building off its foundation and carried it hundreds of miles away... this said building was later discovered to be a research laboratory from an unchanted island in the BERMUDA TRIANGLE!

Can u believe that!!!

after years of travel, the building finally has landed recently in the heart of Florida... in the city of Orlando... completely upside down... and the amazing thing is that... it is still completely intact!

Building Turned Turtle!
(c)ZuLdaniaL

is it a myth or is it true?

if u believed my story... my words of convincing had worked... to the others... yeah.. yeah.. its a junk of crap... but this building do exist in Orlando, Florida... its a man made building built in such a manner.... if it is real... this would have been the 8th wonders of the world...

A splendid tourist attraction...

you may wonder whats in there... to sum up from the information i gathered... it brings u thru a journey of the unexplainable... 'Science'... ull get first hand experience of some of the amazing things in the world.... wanna know what u can find in there?? read on....

Bridge of Fire
This electrifying experience allows visitors to literally interact with electricity. Walking across this bridge will make your hair stand on end, LITERALLY! 250,000 Watts of static electricity is transferred to your body, a hair-raising experience.....

Virtual Hoops
Utilizing the magic of blue screen cinema technology, a visitor's image is actually placed into a basketball game to challenge a much taller defender. Others can watch on the Big Screen as he or she tries to score as many hoops as possible....

WonderCoaster
Design your own roller coaster you have always wanted to ride but couldn't find at any fair or amusement park, then hop on! The WonderCoaster has the ability to turn 360 degrees in EVERY direction. It's even air-conditioned!

Hurricane Hole
It's time to experience one of nature's most powerful storms.....

Earthquake Experience
One of history's most renowned earthquakes has been recreated you may want to hold on to your seat....

dats about all that ive researched on.. im sure there are a lot more to be found in there... so now... had ideas for ur next holiday trip???

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Thursday, August 25, 2005

e' sporean blogs: Lost

ZuLdaniaL Listening to: Guys Next Door - Ive been Waiting For You

For the first time i felt so lost... yesterday night after work... went out wit the peeps... on the way back home.. riding the cold lonely road... i felt lost.. everything seemed foreign to me... the normal route that i usually take seemed different... everything felt uncertain... maybe bcoz im sleepy and tired.. i really am.. but yet again.. mayb had a lot in my mind.. but if i search again thru the mind.. there's nothing... emptiness... fuck! wat the hell is going on!!!!

despite the late night... i got to wake up early to go for my test shoot today... woke up and realised that im late... wat the hell! on top of that.. traffic jam along Marymount Rd... thanks ah.. of all times... lucky for me.. my colleagues were willing to wait for my arrival before proceeding for our test shoot...

"nak lambat.. lambat sama sama... "

... at the firing range....

"Five rounds.... Fire!"

"Bang!..... Bang!.... Bang!..... Bang!.... Bang!...."

pressure seh.... and the results..... and i say it proudly....

*MARKSMAN!*

yahoo! dats another 200 bucks for my bank account...

still feeling lost?? neh... im thinking straight now... see what money can do to a person... and still some denies money is important... not trying to be materialistic... but how to survive without one??

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Tuesday, August 23, 2005

e' sporean blogs: Short Getaway, Long-Winded Entry

ZuLdaniaL Listening to: Usher - Caught Up

the fast moving pace of life... minutes ticking without realising.. the heavy workload at work... rushing from one point to another... and each minute is occupied with something... i definitely to get away from all this... i need to put my mind away... i need a break!

last night shift i took leave just for that purpose... after a hard dae work during the morning shift... cant believe i was dat "salty"... being busy with all kinds of shit for the dae.... it was a great thing i took leave for that day.... just in a dae itself, i managed to catch up with a few peeps whom i have not met for quite awhile...

let me just guide u along thru the journey....

[ 21.08.2005 ]

the clock just strike midnight... met up wit epul and shah.... i badly need to go jb to replenish the necessities... petrol and ciggies... furthermore.. im like so freaking hungry! it was a smooth ride.. no major traffic jam along the causeway... something dat we didnt expect for a weekend...

but it wasnt my 'rezeki' dat dae... my new box of ciggs were no where to be found just before we entered back into singapore.. it must have feel out of my sweater during the ride... if im not mistaken i heard someone horn minutes before the discovery... that person must have been wanting to tell me that something dropped out of my sweater... argghhh... just forget about it... mayb hinting for me to quit anyway....

reached back home somewhere at 4 plus in the morning.. slept almost immediately when my head touches the pillow... sweet dreams zul......

woken up at abt noon by a phonecall... didnt continue the sleep after dat.. dat would have been a waste for my leave... armed with my cellphone.. i called up practically most of my 'kakis'...

"dok.. uat per dok?"

"kerja ah bro..."

oh well.. dat was the reply i got for all of the calls... damn! im mentally prepared to stay home...

mum's not at home.. she was in a hurry to go to jb... didnt managed to cook anything up... sigh... no food!! no food!!!

laziness to cook anything up on my part also played a major part for that afternoon... i survived thru the afternoon without lunch...

by dinner.. i was hungry... freaking hungry... the last i ate was in jb... gosh......

luckily rina offered to accompany me for dinner... met her up at abt 7pm... had our dinner at Rasa Istimewa... a great place to dine... somewhere at a park just after KJE exit Choa Chu Kang Drive... the food was splendid... we enjoyed it... the servings was a lot for a small size.. they should have that for medium instead... u guys should give it a try if u have not...

after dinner.. we took a stroll along the park.. the food needs some digestion....

subsequently, after sending rina home... met up with naz, aida and zana at bishan junction 8 to catch a movie... we watched 'Must Love Dogs'... its a romantic comedy starring Diane Lane and John Cusack... wasnt too bad actually... i would have to agree with this critic...

"It's not terrible;

It offers a handful of funny and touching moments and maintains a level of cuteness.

But it's far from original, and its star chemistry doesn't exactly light up the screen."

William Arnold, SEATTLE POST-INTELLIGENCER

after supper... bai suggested to go spc.. bai said she's on her night shift... she's not met shah for quite some time... so i went separate ways from naz and the gang.. and joined bai and bi'en...

the moment i was at spc.. i felt something amiss....

"where's shah?"

"she went home ady....."

the look i gave to bai explains everything.. she didnt have to ask... she immediately called shah and found out that she went home ady as she's on afternoon shift.. apparently, bai called at 11 plus at night and aishah said she's still at work.. assumption was made on bai's part... she assumed wrongly thou... nie lagik satu confident peh org....

so another plan was made... heading back to amk... to shah's place... the moment shah arrived at the void deck....

"jom pi jumpa an... dah lama ah tak jumpa dia..."

argghhh... to toa payoh!!! we could have gone toa payoh straight... thanks to the 'confident' people...

it was not a bad idea thou going to toa payoh... practically we laughed our hearts out talking bout the past... talking bout how stupid we were once.. bout each clumsiness.. bout each fucked up attitude... updating each other on our lives.. there was just too much to tok about.. guessed we have not sat down together for a long time ady...

aniwae.. it dawned onto us that bai, shah and myself have been friends for 10 years now on next january... dats long... and we are still trying to keep that friendship despite the other commitments we have and our own personal life... aniwae we thought of holding a grand dinner when the day comes to toss to our friendship.. hmphhh.. mayb a dinner at a hotel?? wahahaha... we all laughed...

cant really remember wat time we left.. but we didnt stay up too late thou... some are working in a few hours more...

again.... i slept almost immediately when my head touched the pllow.. sweet dreams zul...

woke up rather early... i think the clock must have showed 8 in the morning... feeling fresh.. i didnt wanna sleep... it would be wasting once again...

somewhere at noon... i left for pasir ris... one of my team mate had organized a chalet for the team... woohooo... barbeque!~!!

had fun at the chalet... ill post some pictures as soon as imran sent the pictures over to me on msn...

slept over at the chalet.. too exhausted trying to get the freaking bbq fire to burn... furthermore.. its a long journey home... with no sweater.. im gonna freeze along TPE....

[ 23.08.2005 ]

woke up at abt noon... thought of heading back home.. but the weather hasnt been nice.. its pouring out there... so i stayed at the chalet wit the guys... herman, imran, jesma and myself went down to changi village for breakfast... lucky thing imran drove dat dae...

as for entertainment.. we were playing our usuals... tai tee... 'bluff'... bang-lak... race... 'heart attack'... what else can u do indoors on a rainy weather??.. aniwae, u name it.. watever games we can think off with poker cards.. we played it...

finally... at abt 6pm.. the weather took a turn.. it was just nice for me to head back home.. em home now... gonna rest after this long uninteresting post.. hmphhh.. ive typed it ady.. what the heck... em still gonna publish it anyway...
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Sunday, August 21, 2005

e' sporean blogs: When Thoughts Go Wrong

ZuLdaniaL Listening to: Simple Plan - Untitled

moving on...

u once told me to....i knew it wouldnt be easy.. somehow or rather.. i knew it would take a lot from me to actually do so... initially, i didnt know how to... coz all i was thinking of was you... slowly, i felt that it was meaningless for me to wait like that... i began indulging myself with other things that would assist me in what u had wanted me to all this while... I guess i did pretty much what i can.. we drifted... i felt that...

we went on with our lives.. personally i did...

SHE came into my life... SHE gave me dat hope... SHE became mine...

things didnt turn out like it was supposed to....

SHE was in my life... but all i was thinking of was u... have u eaten? how have u been doing all this while? are u feeling better? is everything ok? all my questions that came into my head was all about u... i guess i miss u so much... i tot i was over it all... but why did it came back???

dilemma.....

i was lost... confused state... SHE was nice and all to me.... well at least i know SHE had my well being at heart... why couldnt i just focused on one... i wasnt being fair... i realised.. continuing what ive been doing would do injustice...injustice to myself... and injustice to SHE...

it took me courage to bring it up... rushed down to just have a small talk... i told SHE bout the current situation.... things didnt look too good either...

"tak per zul.. i yg bodoh.. i didnt see that..."

i knew how that would have felt... been there.. gone thru that... felt that...

but i had to stop pretending... dats the best way to set things right... im sorry if i didnt move on.. im back... like it or not... im here to stay... like it or not.. im still gonna say...

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Friday, August 19, 2005

e' sporean blogs: Orchard Rd in Ang Mo Kio

the parking summon didnt stopped me... the unfruitful day at bugis didnt either... still armed with cash... i definitely need to lay my hands on something new... i betta get something this time...

i wasn't going far... just somewhere closer to home... at the central...

nobody would have guessed that Ang Mo Kio Central would have anything nice to shop... i didnt either until recently when i layed my eyes on this particular shop... the products there are not those "cheap" and unknown brands stuffs... it was like orchard rd in a shop.... (its not that big thou)...


even my friend laughed when i said i was at central shopping...

"whats there to shop??" she asked with a laughter...

not only until i met her after that to have a cup of teh katai at the coffee shop, i had the last laugh... she too didnt believe that there would be such a shop at the central...


i guessed Ang Mo Kio has changed people... U all just wait when the new interchange opens and is in operation... Im sure the new shopping centre would look just like the one at orchard rd... till then... i will still have to proceed down to town to shop... (not unless the particular shop has what i want)
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Thursday, August 18, 2005

e' sporean blogs: Let Them Talk

ZuLdaniaL Listening to: Aqasha - Embun

if only...

if only my ears could talk.. 'he' would already shout and tell you how sick 'he' is of hearing those stories about you... how i wished i had the right words to ask u nicely if its all true... em never good at words and i know confronting you about it will only make things look bad....

gosh!

it seemed to me now that i made a wrong decision in life.... how can i correct it all??.. should i give it another chance? or should i just let it go??

things begin to be clear now... i missed ur opposition party... a lot... i could have made the wrong decision this time round.. if onli my ears had opened up to listen to the advices of the majority... stubborn! plain stubborn!

dammit!

lord... please show me the right way thru this........
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Wednesday, August 17, 2005

e' sporean blogs: Something New


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Monday, August 15, 2005

e' sporean blogs: Knowing me betta...

ZuLdaniaL Listening to: Sarah - Ku Teruskan

was at friendster and came across these sets of questions... tot ill have it as a post to enlighten those who has yet to know me....

1)brand of ur handphone?
Motorola E398... but thinking of getting a new hp... something from Nokia... but which model eh??? here's the criterias;
i need one with a :
a) fm radio..
b) bluetooth...
c) video...
d) able to store mp3s..
e) big memory space...
f) camera quality is not an issue...
any recommendations?

2) wat'll u do if u see ur bf/gf hugging a boy/gal?
hmphh... lets narrow down the question....
gf hugging a boy?
im gonna approach my gf.. and say hi.. how have u been?? long time no see... and im sure she is going to be stunned... and i would say.. hey.. talk to u later.. have to go.. bye... (balik rumah perang besar u see!)
gf hugging a gal?
ignore... gals always do dat... or do they?? hmphhh...

3) hav a gf/bf?
dating and still keeping my options open...

4) have ur own room?
nop.. i share it with my younger bro.. but we seldom do get to see each other at home.. so.. its more to we both have a fair share of the room to ourself.. when im asleep.. he's awake.. and vice versa....

5) fav pet?
none.. but i missed my cat... he moved on...

6) 1 thing u cant live w/o?
close friends... i treasure friends a lot...

7) where do u live?
Ang Mo Kio Ave 3... dont forget to visit during the festive season k??

8) wat wud u do if sumone tells u he/she likes u?
depends on the person... but most probably.. i would laugh a bit.. whats there to like about me?

9) how are you feelin now?
confused?!

10) where do you hangout?
a) JB - warong dhobi
b) Jalan kayu
c) TPRS
d) adam food centre
e) serangoon gardens food centre
my gawd! i just realised... i hangout at places where there is food and teh! gosh... dat explains why there an increase in my weight.. i got to change! hahah
and yeah.. i forgot.. in times when i feel like being alone.. u can find me at seletar reservoir... sitting at the bench and looking acroass the horizons.. and if im lucky.. there would be shooting stars...

11) what are you good at?
organizing... used to organize get togethers.. chalets.. bbq... outings... but ive done too much and i got sick of the hassle of planning and organizing... i have STAND DOWN from the post!

12) what is it bout a person you cant stand?
lies... lies.. and lies.. but im not a honest person myself.. hey wait.. i am being honest that i am not very honest... i am honest ok??

13) what do you want?
i just want a good life ahead of me and allow my parents live their old age in luxury.. simple...

14) a word that describes you?
clown... (funny, clumsy, entertaining)... i just need a red nose and colourful clothing and im fit to be one....

15) what is ur dream?
To live in a bungalow... and my front porch has a few cars and bikes which i can choose for transportation... a happy family... hmphhh.. dreams will always be dreams...

16) day/nite?
nite.. am a nite person... dats why i work better during night shift... i tend to slack during the morning...

17) sunset/sunrise?
sunset coz i never get a chance to see sunrise.. am always late by that few minutes....

18) like a romantic bf/gf?
yupz... but not 24/7... ill get sick of romanticness...

19) what is it about the opposite gender tt attracts you?
hair... seriously... i have a thing for hair... great hair makes me melt... one fine example.. Jenniffer Aniston...

20) are you an independent person?
been independant since i was young.. i was brought up dat way...

21) do you like school?
I missed school.... but when i am in school.. i hate school... hypocrite!

22) are you stubborn?
most of the time... mak aku slalu ckp.. aku nie degil org nyer... tak dgr kata... cis! i am just standing strong on my point usually.. i wont give in....

23) believe in God?
like duhh

24) ur favourite sports?
does bowling and pool count as sports?? but seriously, used to be play badminton... but time hasnt been too kind to me and thus i have not been playing for quite sometime...

25) believe in fate?
my sentence sometimes ends with... "its all fated"... so what do you think?

26) get pissed off easily?
not really... i am usually very patient with things ard me... but once it reaches a point where i can never tolerate... i will get pissed.. and its seriously not a very good sight...

27) like ur parents?
yes of coz... but am not very close to them... thats where my friends come in... but recently, i can relate betta with my dad.. can reason things out with him... which used to be difficult coz he is hard headed...

29) believe in love?
yes... and i know love doesnt come within a blink of an eye... but love can just vanish with the blink of an eye... tresure those u love...

30) will u get a tattoo?
nearly got one when i was a teenager... thinking back.. i was lucky that i didnt.... haram geng!!!

33) wil u forgive ur bf/gf if she/he cheats on u?
if i love her... why not?? i wouldnt wanna be apart from her... but please dont do it again... i have my limits to being cheated....

34) will u expect ur bf/gf to forgive u?
if i am seriously in love with her... please do forgive me... wouldnt wanna be apart from her...

35) were u on a trip recently?
its been a while... the last was in february... a cruise trip.... i badly need to go on a trip again...

36) fave country?
got to be Singapore... but if you are talking bout a country for a trip... hmphhh.. australia would be nice...

37) r u impatient?
neh... im rather patient... but i have my limits once again...

39) do u organise parties often?
used to... but currently.. ive abandoned partying.. a waste of money and time...

40) do u hav good friends?
hell yeah.... i hope they'll remain till the end of time...

41) do u think u r good-looking?
who u trying to lie??? me good looking?? never.... just an average looking guy...

42) do u care about looks?
dgn monyet pun aku kawan.. tak kan lah care bout looks kan???

45) do you quarrel with people easily?
seldom... coz i hate to get involved in an argument.. but if there's a need to... to get my point across.. i would.. and it wouldnt be nice... i would feel bad after that....

46) are you forgiving?
it seems like it... i will only be angry for a moment.. and ill be ok the minute after...

47) do you get hurt easily?
i have to say i am fragile mentally... i do get hurt easily... physically.. im proud to say im tough...hehe

49) do u prefer men/women with long/short hair?
woman with average length hair... guideline would be after the shoulders.. before the waist...

50) is ur hair colored?
nope... stopped coloring two years back...

52) do you wear a watch??
yes.. my favourite watch.. g shock.. been surviving with me for a long time... u can ask 'him' what ive been up to for the past few years...

53) what color clothes do you like?
black... goes with anything...

54) will you chose love or money?
i dont wanna sound materialistic.. but both... but if u asked me.. if i have to part with my money to save my loved ones.. of coz.. i would let it go...

55) do you prefer sleep or eat?
sleep... i can go the whole day without food but not sleep...

56) white or black?
black....

57) pink or red?
red of coz... pink?? ewwww!

58) fav flower?
blue roses... i dont expect to be given one aniwae... tak macho ah pegang flower... wahaha...

59) do u hate her?
her? who? when? why? what? where? how?

60) if u dun like toking to tt person what will u do?
seriously, the ignore treatment... im busy k to actually entertain these people...
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e' sporean blogs: What is Love?

ZuLdaniaL Listening to: Exist - Hilang Dalam Ramai

Are your palms sweaty, is your heart racing, And your voice caught within your chest?
It isn't Love, it's Like.

You can't keep your eyes or hands off of them, am I right?
It isn't Love, it's Lust.

Are you proud, and eager to show them off?
It isn't Love, it's Luck.

Do you want them because you know they're there?
It isn't Love, it's Loneliness.

Are you there because it's what everyone wants?
It isn't Love, it's Loyalty.

Do you stay for their confessions of Love, because you don't want to hurt them?
It isn't Love, it's Pity.

Are you there because they kissed you, or held your hand?
It isn't Love, it's being Unconfident.

Do you belong to them because their sight makes your heart skip a beat?
It isn't Love, it's Infatuation.

Do you pardon their faults because you care about them?
It isn't Love, it's Friendship.

Do you tell them every day they are the only one you think of?
It isn't Love, it's a Lie.

Are you willing to give all of your favorite things for their sake?
It isn't Love, it's Charity.

Does your heart ache and break when they're sad?
Then it's Love.

Are you attracted to others, but stay with them faithfully without regret?
Then it's Love.

Do you accept their faults because they're a part of who they are?
Then it's Love.

Do you cry for their pain, even when they're strong?
Then it's Love.

Do their eyes see your true heart, and touch your soul so deeply it hurts?
Then it's Love.

But do you stay because a blinding, incomprehensible mix of pain and elation pulls you close and holds you?
Then it's Love.

Would you give them your heart, your life, your death?
Then it's Love.

Now, if Love is painful, and tortures us so,why do we Love?
Why is it all we search for in life?
This pain, this agony?
Why is it all we long for?
This torture, this powerful death of self?
Why?
Because it's...
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Love
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recently, an old friend came back into my life... she's back after another friend persuades me to treat her as norm n nothing less as she is currently looking for me back... i dont know why but my friend was persistant for me to call her back.. back then, while we were still in contact, i didnt like the way she treats the other guys,.... too friendly... way too friendly and in a way had made me think that she is those "easy to get" targets....

bcoz of dat.. i had decided to stay myself away from her....

13.08.2005: we decided to meet up and catch on ol' times... changes... seen changes in her approach... no longer the girl i used to know... we had a long talk... and it took me by surprise that she never treated me as just a friend previously... how come i didnt see dat?? mayb i was just too hard headed and blinded to see anything else...

14.08.2005: eve of her birthday; asked her out at night.. knowing that she is those peeps who will take her own sweet time to get changed... i decided to impose time on her..

"5 mins after i reach and if you are still not ready, i will leave without u..."

"eh zul.. never mind... u just go ahead.. dont wait....!"

silence on the other hand.. apparently, she had hang up the phone... wtf! i was like freaking pissed... called her back.. "no answer".... called her home.. and her mum said she's out... (who the mum trying to kid! nonsense!) sms-es sent... no reply.... i was really gonna leave... and go on and meet my other friends at Jln Kayu as they are already on the way...

but something pulled me back... it wasnt rite... why was she so pissed off... and furthermore timecheck: 1135pm.... it was gonna be her birthday after all.. and i dont want to be the guy who spoils the first day of it...

SMS: "im going over at ur place.. meet u in 10mins.. im sorri bout just now... but im not gonna leave until u come down.."

i must have sounded like a stalker... but i had no choice... i dont want to be the bad one here...

1150pm... still no sign....

called her up... and in my heart there was nothing except..."please.. please.. answer the god damn phone!!"

"yes?"

"come down now.. im ady downstairs... please..."

"bye"

line went dead again... whats dat supposed to mean... what does the bye mean? bye as in... ok.. wait.. ill be coming... or bye as in... f**k off.. i dont want to meet u...

STUNNED and CLUELESS!

but i waited...

15.08.2005 : 1205am... i saw her walking down the staircase... phew!

i thought...

the whole journey.. silence...

jalan kayu... silence!

i was like almost gonna blow my top... to think that ive already tried my best to talk.. and be nice... the silent treatment is there... dont tell me just bcoz of 5 mins.. she wants to give me this attitude... come on lah.. she has to think too... i frequently waited for her previously,... 1hr? 2hrs?... and i didnt complain except just gave a fed up look... but thats onli for awhile thou...

it was only after the jalan kayu she started talking.... apparently, she just woke up when i called her... and giving her that timing just pisses her off... since she has not even took her bath... (u can just tell me and i will give a longer timing.. duh!!!) so my journey to JB wasnt that bad after all... after it all.. we came back to singapore.. and decided to have a tok.. learnt a lot bout her and her past that i didnt know... somehow or rather pitied her past....

and after a long conversation.. the topic came out again...

"so, where u see us heading?"

"ermm.. erm... im sori.. but i think we got to take it slow... for now... i see us as friends... sorri.... but who says friends cant be fun?"

lucky thing she smiled... if not i would have felt guilty!

anyway....


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Saturday, August 13, 2005

e' sporean blogs: First Bath

The Bikes
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so we met up and gave the bikes a good scrub... stubborn stains removed... oils spillages on the tanks are cleaned off... chain grease stains on the rims were also scrubbed clear... splendid! Sarah's first bath!

Sarah
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recently ive also bought some stickers as well to paste onto sarah and my helmet to give its own distinguish look from all other xrs... more to be done.. for the time being.. it shall be this first... the wordings on the tyres were also painted... still pondering on what else to do with my bike...

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Monday, August 08, 2005

e' sporean blogs: Bloggers Issue

ZuLdaniaL Listening to: Gwen Stefani - Hollaback Girl

A recent outing wit naz, afad, epul n kahar got us talking about relationship stuffs... a hot topic that was discussed between with each of us having some pretty different opinions on it... at the end of it all, we decided to post something about it in each of our individual blogs and see how good we r able to debate about it in words.. the topic;- JEALOUSY

It would have been a lie if i said i am not jealous when u r out with other guys... it would have been a total lie if i said i am not jealous when ur ex boo/crush calls you back... it would have been a lie if i said i am not jealous like at all when anything you do is against the love i have for you...

Jealousy is something that i believe is in everyone... if u say u are not jealous.. then i will tell u this... BULLSHIT!

Personally, i am a person who gets easily jealous... however, i have difficulty showing it.. i guess its ego... you say you wanna go out with some tom, dick or harry.. and my reply would come easily as... "oh ok... just take care"... but behind all those words lies a lot of hidden feelings... feelings like... why must u go out with him?? is it necessary?? why dont go out with me instead?? why?? why?? why???

but again.. my reason for not showing these feelings are pretty simple... i dont want you to think that i dont trust you... coz im the sort who would give someone that amount of trust when i love a person... but yet again... its just fear... fear of losing you...

what if meeting up with that person would make you change your love totally... what if your ex boo calls u back and wants u back and his sweet words made u fall... what if... i just wake up and realise you are snatched away by someone else... shit happens.. and these shits happened before in my life....

yet again... i dont want to be telling you, "NO!"... no.. you cant go out with him... no you cant do this.. no you cant do that... that would have been possesive... i am not a possesive type of person in the first place... and being possesive itself could also make me lose you... not unless you are those kind who like a being controlled and a possesive partner... personally, i would suffocate given that kind of partner....

this is just too complex... relationship itself is a complex thing... and discussing it would never come to an end... there are just too many points to cover and from such different angles...

to make discussion less complex about a relationship i guess we would have to start with sincerity and loyalty... both parties have to remain sincere and loyal to make things work... somehow or rather... these have to be instilled into the minds of both parties... with these two factors... everything just comes into place.... a certain amount of trust starts to build knowing that the other is loyal to u and only u... fear starts to depreciate... and being possesive is totally unnecesary... and jealousy?? what is there to be jealous about??
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Saturday, August 06, 2005

e' sporean blogs: Body Talk

ZuLdaniaL Listening to: Firehouse - When I Look Into Your Eyes

my body is aching...

argghhh...

every part of my body doesnt feel right!!

BADLY NEED A GOOD MASSAGE!
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Thursday, August 04, 2005

e' sporean blogs: Reminisce

ZuLdaniaL Listening to: Raghav - No No

its funny how some people can change overnight... at one moment she can love u with all ur heart and wit a blink of the eye... she just changed and declared that she never did... been there.. done that.. felt that....

i guess dat is why the word commitment is such a big thing for me... been deeply committed before... and only to find out that in the end i was being played out like a fool... shit happens.. and i dont deny dat there are many others out there who went thru what i did and moved on...

im not saying ive not moved on... i did... but the main factor now i guess would be fear.. what ifs?? what if i commit myself to something and in the end is played out again like a fool... i dont think i wanna go thru what i had gone thru previously...

the pain.. the heartbreak.. is all uncalled for... and i never want to go thru it all again....

enuf said about the past... Rina introduced me this song... the tune is something that gets me on the dancefloor... although ive boycotted that long time ago... however, its the lyrics of the song that gets me reminiscing about the past... something that i guess many could relate to...


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Wednesday, August 03, 2005

e' sporean blogs: Made for Walking

ZuLdaniaL Listening to: Pussy Cat feat. Busta Rhymes - Dont Cha

Birkenstock...

Ring a bell???

Still Pondering???

It was the 'in thing'.. the fashion back then.. would i say about 5 years ago... i could still remember the time when i had a few of the said sandals.. in different colours... and i would make frequent visits to beach road, my favourite shooping paradise back then, to check out any new designs...

but the fashion died off just like that without even saying goodbye... with a blink of an eye.. no one was wearing it.. it was as if the 'Birkenstock Association' was tellin everyone to stop wearing it with immediate effect...

but recently, it started again.. i guess.. havent actually seen anyone wearing it.. maybe its bcoz ive not been concentrating on peoples feet that often... hmphh... but anyway, Rina brought it up to me...

Initially she was telling me about birkenstock.. she was planning to get one.. and at first, i was telling myself.. what the hell is dat?? wat kind of sandals is she referring to.. slowly images of it started to recollect back into my memory....

to add further, i was bloghopping and came across a blog... "Kiss me by the Riverside"... in one of her entry.. she mentioned about getting birkenstock... coincidence??? i guess its really coming back... the fashion is back in our heartland...

so people.. wat are u waiting for??? its time to check that store of yours where you keep your old junks.. its no longer a junk now... im gonna do dat... but wait!!! can i still fit into it??? neh... ive grown out of it... no longer had dat teenage feet... wahahaha...

so i guess its back to beach road huh??? Rina... we'll go there one of these days since you are getting it as well.. hopefully they are aware of the uprising trend and starts bringing in the stocks... till then...
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Tuesday, August 02, 2005

e' sporean blogs: I Work So That You Can Work

ZuLdaniaL Listening to: Screen - Bila Kau Kata Kau Sayang

Typical Day of a Police Officer

01.08.2005
:Shift II duties (Night Shift)...
:1930hrs > Fall in for inspection
:1935hrs > Briefing of shift in briefing room...
:Deployed as Fast Response Patrol wit Sgt Imran...
:2008hrs > our first incident(message) to be attended...
:Operation Room, "Echo 5 Romeo 2 Alpha, have you resumed patrol over?"
:Us, "Roger, you can put me now over..."
:Operation Room, "Roger, time check 2050hrs.. Standby another message over..."

Thanks ah! didnt get a chance to have my dinner yet and im attending message one after another.... by the end of the second message... i still have to proceed for another....and this kept going for the whole night... and just when i thought i could have a rest after resuming from one of the message... my supervisor wanted a road block to be done...

ish... and messages didnt stop there... after roadblock.. there are still messages pending...

imran and myself just have this 'heng' between us whenever we go out patrol... never once would it be something smooth sailing... mentally.. we are already prepared for the hectic day....

02.08.2005
:0800hrs > Stand down from Shift II duties...
:0830hrs > Debriefing of shift in briefing room....
:0915hrs > End of debriefing... and off to the locker rooms....

0945hrs... Changed and set to go........... Where to?? Home??

Cpl Norain: "Come ah... Lets go breakfast...."
Sgt ZuL: "Where?? One whole night busy... I really need this breakfast..."
Cpl Norain: "Liat Towers?? BK?? How?"

Dats something new... usually my team mates usual haunts would be either Adam Food Centre, Serene Centre McDonalds or Sixth Ave, Anamalai Coffeeshop...

so i thought why not... we gathered a few more 'kakis' to go... and finally 7 of us proceeded down... 2 cars and a bike... where's all the other bikers?? damn... none are working... either on leave or having other duties... That was a boring ride towards orchard rd...

breakfast at orchard in the morning of a weekday was not a bad experience... there was not much of rowdy crowd.... there was no crowd basically... everything seemed relax for a town area... the road was not that busy compared to the usual town traffic...

Full stomach.. and now its time to go home...

The Talk

Was warming up my bike which was parked at the carpark near to far east shopping centre... and then....

Anonymous, "Sarp... bro.. dah lama tak nampak...."

As i looked up... Khamal! it really has been a long time since we saw each other ard... we had quite a good and interesting conversation to share..

Singapore Police Force
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Learnt that he is now in the force as well... in the special operations command(SOC)... Recently, a conversation between him and his mischievous friend working in the private sector led to a topic of the police force.... His friend had noticed that the police officers are performing patrol duties along Orchard Road and joked that the officers looked like 'Robocops wit fancy arms and padded uniforms...' According to him, the police are carrying things too far.. 'Why the drama?', he explained... A perfect example of Kiasuism according to him...

Being the Khamal that I always know.. Im sure he has a good reply to this...

His reply was, "you can laugh all you want... but i work so that YOU can work..."

?????? > Dat was what was in my head.....

Khamal explained. Police prsence prevents terrorist attacks and criminal activities, making spore safe... a safer spore means more investments and jobs... no foreign businessman will invest in a country if the security risks are high...

to think back.. its true... sometimes we get so caught up with the hassles of life and work that we tend to forget the contribution we made... wat Khamal said was a good point... can you imagine spore without the police force... dat would have been a chaotic sight.... wat he said did get me thinking and at the same time remind me of my contribution to society...

Conclusion - SPF officers work so Singaporeans can work....

Thanks for the reminder Khamal!

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Monday, August 01, 2005

e' sporean blogs: Cause of Death

ZuLdaniaL Listening to: Kahitna - Sampai Nanti

'Scram 2 e Point' - had caused major problems for the past few days... it seemed like my blog entries took forever to load... i spent a huge load of time trying to troubleshoot the problem... frustration!... Anger!... all kinds of emotions starts running in... it seemed like nothing worked!... and then.. the saddest thing happened... I GAVE UP!

i decided to abandon 'Scram 2 e Point'... it was a painful decision... initially, i thought of deleting the whole blog and start afresh... but... what if... one day things gets betta for 'Scram 2 e Point'??... deleting it would erase all previous posts... dat is heartbreaking... being apart wit something that has been part of my life...

the feeling is like as though i am going to be apart wit someone close in my life... saddening...

i held on to that faith that 'Scram 2 e Point' would be ok in the near future... so, i decided to start a new blog site... i did pretty much to the new site... had a new layout... a total new outlook from 'Scram 2 e Point'.... everything works well... great!.. i thought to myself...

then i decided to add a tagboard to my new site... at this point... i thought.. maybe i could get 'Scram 2 e Point' tagboard into my new site... at least i had something as remembrance... 'ctrl+c' and 'ctrl+v'... walla! I had the tagboard...

so its time to view the page ... 'REFRESH'... ooopsss... nothing! nothing! nothing!

why?? why?? why??

then it came into my mind.. could it be???

i deleted the entire tagboard from 'Scram 2 e Point'... 'REFRESH'....

THANKS EH!!!!!

so dat was the main problem huh... and i failed to troubleshoot that....

but till this point... was i going to abandon the new site that i had took time to set up??? neh.. i decided to have a new look to 'Scram 2 e Point'... im gonna revamp it... but lucky me... i still have 'Scram 2 e Point' previous entries... phew!

so lets now say goodbye to 'Scram 2 e Point'.... He passed on...


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