u once told me to....i knew it wouldnt be easy.. somehow or rather.. i knew it would take a lot from me to actually do so... initially, i didnt know how to... coz all i was thinking of was you... slowly, i felt that it was meaningless for me to wait like that... i began indulging myself with other things that would assist me in what u had wanted me to all this while... I guess i did pretty much what i can.. we drifted... i felt that...
we went on with our lives.. personally i did...
SHE came into my life... SHE gave me dat hope... SHE became mine...
things didnt turn out like it was supposed to....
SHE was in my life... but all i was thinking of was u... have u eaten? how have u been doing all this while? are u feeling better? is everything ok? all my questions that came into my head was all about u... i guess i miss u so much... i tot i was over it all... but why did it came back???
dilemma.....
i was lost... confused state... SHE was nice and all to me.... well at least i know SHE had my well being at heart... why couldnt i just focused on one... i wasnt being fair... i realised.. continuing what ive been doing would do injustice...injustice to myself... and injustice to SHE...
it took me courage to bring it up... rushed down to just have a small talk... i told SHE bout the current situation.... things didnt look too good either...
"tak per zul.. i yg bodoh.. i didnt see that..."
i knew how that would have felt... been there.. gone thru that... felt that...
but i had to stop pretending... dats the best way to set things right... im sorry if i didnt move on.. im back... like it or not... im here to stay... like it or not.. im still gonna say...
born in 1983. an online journal of a singaporean born malay guy. living in the heart of singapore - Ang Mo Kio.
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