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Friday, April 29, 2005

e' sporean blogs: Flash Back on Memories


Sepet
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-= One Chinese Boy - One Malay Girl - One Unforgettable Love Story =-

I happened to come across a page over on the internet regarding this movie... and everything just flashed back...

- = Kairin's Photo Blog = -

I watched this solid movie some time back over at naz's place.. it stories about how a beng-ish vcd selling chinese boy falls in love with this malay girl in baju kurung... i had a fair share of laughter and also scenes where i go "awhhh" because its so touching to the heart..... fuiyoh... basically, its a show suitable for both the malay and malays and chinese to see...

Everytime i think of this movie, just flashed back about my past... times when i courted and was together with a chinese girl, Soo Chin... hahaha... so sweet... and funny...

to think about it... we did have a difficult time together... mind u... she's a total ah-lian seh... and me?? the malay-beng... imagine that... whenever we fight... i would curse her in malay and she would curse me back in hokkien...

but those were the times... my teenage life... sweet and yet funny memories... ok ok.. back to the movie - Sepet. My verdict:

recommended...

i give it 4 out of 5.

PS: Naz, nak pinjam vcd nie leh?? Ko tanyer kan ina utk aku... thanx bro...
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e' sporean blogs: Wide Awake

Im surprised that im still wide awake despite of the fact that i just reached home since yesterday's afternoon!

Yesterday, i went to meet naz at bout 7pm at bukit batok... There was some misscommunication among us that needs some settling there and then... dat went quite smoothly... i think... but anyways... whats done cannot be undone... so move on... hahaha... (that is so me)

after dat went over to lakeside to meet iqbal at bout 11pm... there was a particular funny incident there that i wont forget... a drunk apek approached us and asked, "ini mana?"... wat the heck... get himself drunk until he dont know where he is at?? hmphhh.. dats bad... very bad....

anyway... during that point of time... i really felt like drinking.. its been a long time since i touched alcohol... and given the situation i am in rite now... my head all messed up... i just felt like drowning myself with alcohol all over again... called up bai to meet her up at woodlands....

so was at woodlands at bout 12.30am... bai was wit an.. but by the time i reached.. i was already thinking twice bout drinking... i started thinking how hard ive been trying to say no to liquors all these while... and then i just told bai that i am dropping the idea... i just dont think that drinking will make my situation even much simpler... actually its not think... i am sure it wont make it simpler... it does help take my mind of stuffs.. but the effect the next day... will just make it even worst....

somehow i felt glad dat i didnt grab any liquors last nite... my old friends gonna freak out if they read this... zul saying no to liquors? that is not him at all.. he would finish all the liqours on the table!!.. sorry guys... thats in the past... environment changes... and so does people...

well, dat would be all for my entry now... think im gonna try get some sleep... try to close these eyes that is still wide awake... adious guys...

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Thursday, April 28, 2005

e' sporean blogs: Change your resolution

Received some feedback regarding my blog... to ensure that you get to view this webpage the way it is intended to.. please change your resolution to 1024 x 768 pixels... thanks bro for pointing it out to me... your comments is deeply appreciated... hahaha....

anyway, nothing much to update on my blog... been a pretty goodboy the past few days... ive been staying home most of the time... catch up with time with my family members.... apparently we stay under the same roof... but we rarely do get to see each other.. when they are awake.. im asleep... and when they are asleep... im out and awake... my long hours at work also plays a part in this issue... well anyways, we have done enough catching up... so ill be continuing my frequent late nites soon... haha... but for now... i need some sleep! just came back from nite shift...

till next time.... adious!
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Wednesday, April 27, 2005

e' sporean blogs: Ruffedge - Tipah Tertipu

Here the drama get's wicked
Tipah tertipu, tertipu, tipu tertipah
Tipah tertipu lagi

Bila berkata tentang tipah tertipu lagi
Jangan salahkan sesiapa salahkan diri sendiri
Yang tahu menilai sesuatu yang baik buruk dan rugi
Cinta datang dan pergiJangan tergadai diri

Kau harus tahu dankau harus fikir ha
Ini permainan bukan boleh diduga
CAT aka Pria Pujangga
Bucu kasar menggegarkan telinga
Azan memulakannya

Kisah tipah ini satu pengajaran yang
Buat kita fikir oh, oh, oh, oh, oh
Mulanya seperti kain yang suci
Tapi dicemari dunia keji

Senang percaya si Jeffry
Dia ditipu lelaki
Senang pula ubah hat
iKerana ditipu emosi
Menipu sana dan sini
Tanggung kandungan sendiri
Bila problem dah menggunung
Tak ada yang dapat tolong

Tipah tertipu, tertipu, tipu tertipah
Tipah tertipu lagi
Tipah tertipu, tertipu, tipu tertipah
Tipah tertipu lagi

Selepas tertipu, dia yang menipu
Tipu sudah jadisebati dengan diri
Tipu dah tertipah kerana selesa
Dengan gaya hidupnya yang gila
Dia makin terdesak
Tertipu menipu menangis seorang diri
Mengenang nasib yang rugi
Tak suci dah lagi dan kini
Masa untuk kebenaran muncul kembali

Bila kau sedar
Taktik kau dah lari
Kau cari pengganti
Sampai bila pun kau tak cukup dan
Tak mudah berhenti
Apa nak dicari tetapkanmenjadi-jadi
Kerana cintamu mudah dijual mudah dibeli Jefry
Ey..ey dah bingit ni
Menangis si derita tanggung sendiri apa dicari
Tetap kau salahkan
Ali mengapa
Seronok sendiri tak kira malam dan pagi
Jangan tangisi derita yang kau cari sendiri

Ma you the best dada am the best papa
Ma you hilang semua papa sama saja
Ikut penangan jiwa sendirikan bertanya

Bila masa cinta berputik di pinggiran dia
Hello bolehku tanya siapa nama
Oohh Tipah... Pernah ku dengar tapi di mana ya
Mungkinkah dari teman-temanku
Kaulah gadis ituYang selalu ditipu
Engkaulah Tipah tertipu

Oh Tipah... selamat hari jadi
Kau sudah kena... kena tipu lagi
Tiada siapa yang boleh tolong melainkan
Tuan punya body oh... Tipah

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I dont know why but felt this is the best song that explains me now... cause... AKU tertipu lagi.... But dont know why but i didnt felt frustrated getting to know bout it... but seriously.. am disturbed by the fact that i was lied to.... totally made me look like a fool....
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Sunday, April 24, 2005

e' sporean blogs: A Thousand Words

People say a picture paints a thousand words... I just received a couple of pictures sent by a colleague of mine which was taken during our team's chalet on 12/04/2005... And i just loved this particular pic.... Taken just seconds before I was thrown into the pool....


Chalet on 12/04/2005
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e' sporean blogs: Photo Editing


Photo Editing - Cari Ilham
(c)ZuLdaniaL

Have always been fond of photo editing... This is the latest that i had done to my collection of pictures... Photo courtesy from Naz's digital camera...

Anybody want to place their orders for their photos to be edited?

Currently Listening to:

Snow Patrol - Run
Album: Final Straw

I'll sing it one last time for you
Then we really have to go
You've been the only thing that's right
In all i've done.

And I can barely look at you
But every single time I do
I know we'll make it anywhere
Anywhere from here

Light up, Light up
As if you have a choice
Even if you cannot hear my voice
I'll be right beside you dear

Louder, louder
And we'll run for our lives
I can hardly speak I understand
Why you can't raise your voice to say

To think I might not see those eyes
It makes it so hard not to cry
And as we say our long goodbyes
I nearly do.

Light up, light up
As if you have a choice
Even if you cannot hear my voice
I'll be right beside you dear

Louder, louder
And we'll run for our lives
I can hardly speak I understand
Why you can't raise your voice to say

Slower, slower
We don't have time for that
All I want is to find an easier way
To get out of our little heads

Have heart my dear
We're bound to be afraid
Even if it's just for a few days
Making up for all this mess.

Light up, light up
As if you have a choice
Even if you cannot hear my voice
I'll be right beside you dear
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Saturday, April 23, 2005

e' sporean blogs: Guess Who

Am on leave today!!! Pheww... Its been quite awhile since i took leave... Im just tired... Mentally and physically... So need to take time off from work...

Went out with Rina for awhile to catch a movie... We managed to catch "Guess Who"... I received comments from Abg Man that the show is damn power... And here's my verdict...


Guess Who
(c)ZuLdaniaL

POWER!!!

Its actually about an interracial couple, a black and a white. And the white is gonna meet the black's parents for the first time... The movie is humourous.. There's a few scenes which is touching and u would just go 'awhhhhh'..... A movie which is definitely worth catching for humour lovers out there... erppsss.. who isnt?? haha...

Aniwae... both of us just cant wait for Star Wars Episode III which would be out on May 19... Surprisingly, she's a star wars lover herself... Yipeee... Its difficult to find girls who enjoys these type of movies...

We went back quite early... she wanted to watch Music Extravaganza at home... So sent her back and went over to Naz's new house since im in the vicinity... Just checking out the house which is halfway renovating... My critics??? None... cause my critic partner is not ard... hehehe... ok bro, dont worry... im sure the end product would be nice... i like ur kitchen light... ur mum's room.... the green paint... all thumbs up... and dont forget the clipsal switch... *winks... hahaha
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e' sporean blogs: McFly - It's All About You

It's all about you
(It's about you)
It's all about you baby
(It's all about)
It's all about you
(It's about you)
It's all about you

Yesterday you asked me something I thought you knew
So I told you with a smile
It's all about you

Then you whispered in my ear
And you told me too
Said you've made my life worthwhile
It's all about you

And I would answer all your wishes
If you asked me to
But if you deny me one of your kisses
Don't know what I'd do

So hold me close and say three words
Like you used to do
Dancing on the kitchen tiles
It's all about you, yeah

And I would answer all your wishes
If you asked me to
But if you deny me one of your kisses
Don't know what I'd do

So hold me close and say three words
Like you used to do
Dancing on the kitchen tiles
Yes you made my life worthwhile
So I told you with a smile.

It's all about you
(It's about you)
It's all about you baby
(It's all about)
It's all about you
(It's about you)
It's all about you

Came across this song yesterday with rina... very lively... RECOMMENDED!
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Friday, April 22, 2005

e' sporean blogs: The New Look

Finally managed to get a new look for my blog after stressing my brains out... stayed up till abt 2 am yesterday to get the new look up and running despite the fact that i am on morning shift and have to wake up at 5.30am... its been a long time since ive actually touched HTML... totally lost touch of the codes...

luckily got the help of rina who explained a bit here and there on the phone... if not for her... i think i wouldnt sleep at all... hahaha... its just not me to give up halfway when something is not achieved... aniwae... im still coming up with ideas on how to improve the look...

alright got to go now... till next time...
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Thursday, April 21, 2005

e' sporean blogs: The Ultimate Retro

Went to meet aishah just now as she badly needs help... She needs to shop for her Dinner and Dance outfit.... The theme; "Rock and Roll / Retro"...

Before we went ard... we sort of had 'teh katai' at our usual spot to at first to think about what kind of outfit will actually look retro...

Here are some of the necessities/accessories, we figured out, that would make someone look retro on top of the clothing wise of course:
1) Rounded acrylic type of earings
2) Plastic framed shades.. (the bigger the better)
3) Plastic type of bangles

As for the outfit, we figured out(together with the help of nazri who happened to call me during that time) that skirts that are flare and pockerdots would be considered retro... But our dear aishah didnt feel like wearing skirt... she wanted pants... so figured out for pants we have to get a tshirt to match it... and it has to be of a bright colour... hmphhh... there are lots... but its difficult to find one that is of retro look...

Our walking ard and surveying proved to be fruitful... we managed to get one retro looking top(as featured below).. on my point of view... its really nice... but cant imagine it on her.. aishah with retro look... hmphhh.. something new...


The Ultimate Retro
(c)ZuLdaniaL

we also got her earings and shades... pink earings and white framed shades to match the top...

and now the real big question we cant solve... what about the pants?? jeans?? or stripped pants??? and what kind of shoes would match?? covered shoes?? heels??? we totally ran out of idea... so u guys out there... maybe u can chipped in ur ideas aite...

Ps: naz, help us with the bottoms and shoes.... since u seem to know a bit of what retro is all about...

Urs truly,
ZuLdaniaL
da new fashion consultant in town...
(yeah rite!)
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Wednesday, April 20, 2005

e' sporean blogs: Mariah Carey - We Belong Together

by Mariah Carey
We Belong Together

Verse 1
I didn't mean it when I said I didn't love you so
I should have held on tight I never should have let you go
I didn't know nothing, I was stupid, I was foolish
I was lying to myself

I couldn't have fathomed I would ever be without your love
Never imagined I'd be sitting Here beside myself
Guess I didn't know you You'd guess I didn't know me
But I thought I knew everything
I never felt

Pre-Chorus 1
The feeling that I'm feeling
Now that I don't hear your voice
Or have your touch and kiss your lips
Cause I don't have a choice
Oh what I wouldn't give
To have you lying by my side
Right here cause baby

Chorus 1
When you left I lost a part of me
It's still so hard to believe
Come back baby please cause
We belong together
Who else am I gonna lean on when times get rough
Who's gonna talk to me on the phone Till the sun comes up
Who's gonna take your place
There ain't nobody better
Oh baby baby
We belong together

Verse 2
I can't sleep at night
When you are on my mind
Bobby Womack's on the radio S
inging to me "If You Think You're Lonely Now"
Wait a minute this is too deep
I gotta change the station S
o I turn the dial tryin' to catch a break
And then I hear Babyface "I Only Think Of You"
and it's breakin' my heart
I'm tryin' to keep it together but I'm falling apart

Pre-Chorus 2
I'm feeling all out of my element
Throwing things, crying tryin'
To figure out where the hell I went wrong
The pain reflected in this song
Ain't even half of what I'm feeling inside I need you,
need you back in my life baby

Chorus 2
When you left I lost a part of me
It's still so hard to believe
Come back baby please cause
We belong together
Who else am I gonna lean on when times get rough
Who's gonna talk to me on the phone
Till the sun comes up
Who's gonna take your place
There ain't nobody better Oh baby baby
We belong together baby

Outro
When you left I lost a part of me
It's still so hard to believe
Come back baby please cause
We belong together
Who am I gonna lean on when times get rough
Who's gonna talk to me till the sun comes up
Who's gonna take your place
There ain't nobody better
Oh baby baby
We belong together
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Tuesday, April 19, 2005

e' sporean blogs: The Coward who Confessed

"There is something Ive wanted to tell you but do not have the balls to say it"

Ive said this once to Rina before.... She didnt push it and didnt ask further. ...The topic died off there and then....

But yesterday, I swallowed my own fear and sort of sms her a self explanatory hint of the whole matter..... She got the hint although initially wanted me to be more straight with what i wanted to say.... Although the reply wasnt wat i wanted, I kinda predicted it..... But however it felt good..... Like Nazri said before, "mcm kentot.. dah kuarkan baru lega".

I guessed i didnt want to be the coward who didnt say nothing at all.... Now at least she knows I dont look at her merely as a friend...

Till next time guys... Keep on 'peeping'....
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Sunday, April 17, 2005

e' sporean blogs: Samara


Samara
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Yesterday, I was out with Bai, Shah and Epul.... Actually Siti was supposed to come along... But i sort of was pissed with her because she was taking her own sweet time to get changed... If its an hour.. I wouldnt mind waiting... But she took even longer than that... To make things worst... I called her several times and she just wont answer the call.. How to get a confirmation if she is still going?? So i got sick of waiting and i just sms her saying that ill leave without her... and just wat i expected... she was pissed that i didnt wait... but anyways.. wat the heck.. my friends come in first before chickies....


Bai and Myself
(c)ZuLdaniaL

So I met bai and shah first... Epul had something up and would be late... The three of us headed down to town first... It was fun at town.. I met lots of old friends... even way back to my primary school friends... Surprisingly they still remember my name... and I have to think for a long time before i actually remember theirs... We didnt really had much of a conversations... cause at the times that i saw them... i was hurrying off to some place else...

Epul came down at about 2250hrs... So late sia dat guy! Luckily, we managed to catch Samara at 2340hrs...

Samara was a good show... Lots of suspense... A recommended movie... I was actually supposed to watch samara wit Rina as we both had planned... But since she was too busy rite now... I decided to catch it first...

When I reached hm at about 0330hrs, I called Rina up... Surprising thing she's not asleep.... Talked quite long with her... It seems like we have not actually talked for a few days as both were busy... Aniwae... we planned... and next up in the movie list that we r both gonna catch is...
"Guess Who"
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Saturday, April 16, 2005

e' sporean blogs: Stuck in between two worlds

Recently, I just got to know another nice looking girl, Siti.... She's actually a friend's friend.... So we just decided to keep in touch.... it was also my friend's idea of a matchmake as my friend realise both of us have lots in common...

So, we hanged out.. and wow! Can clicked with her just like dat.... It was as if we had known each other very long and both of us just felt comfortable with each other... However, i realised that she was what i used to be last time.... i guess this was what my friend referred to as common...Vulgar, Very open, clubbing as a form of enjoyment to life, never say no to alcohol and the list just goes on... Maybe I used to be like that and thats why I was able to get used to her style...

On our second date, we already called each other darling... I took it as a joke and fooling ard... and i believe its the same on her part... we touch each other here and there(strictly hands and legs.. nothing more than that..hahah) and it seems like it doesnt felt wrong... again i took it as a joke and fooling ard and i again believe its the same on her part... I used to do these stuffs last time when i actually dont mean a thing about it... and i dont actually have the feelings for it.. I call it "fooling ard with no strings attached"...

Rina, on the other hand is sort of what i am right now... doesnt see club as a form of enjoyment... would say no to alcohol... would rather stay home if there is nothing important to do outside... (other than watching movies of coz... as it is something that both of us enjoy doing together...).. doesnt really like late nights... same maturity... doesnt like to argue ove stupid matters coz its a waste of our time... well of coz there are more good personalities that she has that i am slowly trying to pick up...

So basically dats about it... ive known two girls who are totally from 2 worlds... Siti just reminds me of my past behaviours and attitude.. It is like seeing what i am in my past infront of my eyes... it was an eye opener... whereas rina is what i am now... both are great "kaki" under the sun... but the question now... who to mix ard with more...

As u guys know, our attitude or behaviour sort of follow the people u hang ard with... so if i choose siti to hang out more with.. then ill be going back to where i started... and if i chose rina.. then it would be vice versa... hmphh... something worth pondering about...

So ill still keep pondering.. till my next entry... see ya!
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Monday, April 11, 2005

e' sporean blogs: Akon - Lonely

Introduced to this song by Zulherman... The cutest song ever... Check it out...

Artist:Akon
Song:Lonely
Album:

Lonely
im so lonely,
I have nobody,
To call my owwnnn

Im so lonely,
im mr. Lonely
I have nobody,
To call my owwnnn
Im so lonely,

Yo this one here goes out to all my playas out there ya kno got to have one good girl
whose always been there like ya
Kno took all the bullshit then one day she cant take it no more and decides to leave

I wont up in the middle of the night and I noticed my girl wasn't by my side, coulda sworn I
was dreamin, for her I was
Feenin, so I hadda take a little ride, back tracking ova these few years, tryna figure out wat I do to make it go bad, cuz
Ever since my girl left me, my whole left life came crashin

Im so lonely so lonely,
Im mr. Lonely mr. Lonely
I have nobody I have nobody
To call my own to call my own girl

Im so lonely so lonely
Im mr. Lonely mr. Lonely
I have nobody I have nobody
To call my own to call my own girl

Cant belive I hadda girl like you and I just let you walk right outta my life, after all I put u thru
u still stuck
Around and stayed by my side, what really hurt me is I broke ur heart, baby you were a
good girl and I had no right, I
Really wanna make things right, cuz without u in my life girl

Im so lonely so lonely
Im mr. Lonely mr. Lonely
I have nobody I have nobody to call my own
To call my own to call my own girl

Im so lonely so lonely
Im mr. Lonely mr. Lonely
I have nobody I have nobody
To call my own to call my own girl

Been all about the world ain't neva met a girl that can take the things that you been through
Never thought the day would come where you would get up and run and I would be out
chasing u
Cuz aint nowhere in the globe id rather be, aint noone in the globe id rather see then the
girl of my dreams that made me
Be so happy but now so lonely

So lonely so lonely
Im mr. Lonely mr. Lonely
I have nobody I have nobody
To call my own to call my own

Im so lonely so lonely
Im mr. Lonely mr. Lonely
I have nobody I have nobody
To call my own to call my own girrll

Never thought that id be alone, I didnt hope you'd be gone this long, I jus want u to come
home, so stop playing girl and
Come on home come on home, baby girl I didn't mean to shout, I want me and you to work
it out, I never wished Id ever
Hurt my baby, and its drivin me crazy cuz...

Im so lonely so lonely
Im mr. Lonely mr. Lonely
I have nobody I have nobody
To call my own to call my own

Im so lonely so lonely
Im mr. Lonely mr. Lonely
I have nobody I have nobody
To call my own to call my own girll

Lonely, so lonely
So lonely, so lonely,
Mr. Lonely, so lonely
So lonely, so lonely,
so lonely, Mr. Lonely
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e' sporean blogs: Mistakes

Cant get myself to sleep still.. so decided to pin this down in my blog... not too sure where the inspiration came from....


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Sunday, April 10, 2005

e' sporean blogs: Aint No Match

Just hang up with the phone wit rina.... so decided to type dis before i go to sleep... have to wake up at 5.45am later...

anyway... we were talking bout almost everything... and everything was fun to talk bout... until the part where she started talking bout her "emotionally attached" guy... dats when.. i started to keep quiet most of the time.. i dont know why... just felt like pulling myself away before i started developing more feelings for her.... but on the other hand... cant bear myself to do dat... dont know why... i think one day i will have to talk things out with her... get things straightened out before things gets a bit deeper...

But one thing im sure of... im no match for that guy... seriously.... from her version of story.. she really look up to dat guy... hey... i got quite good sixth sense... and i know this for sure... if she is going to be with him one day.... i seriosly wouldnt mind... coz i feel that he's worthy enough.... but if its for some scumbag... that guy better watch his back..!

k guys... gtg... 2 hours to sleep... hmphhh... but still aint sleepy but got to force myself... take care... till next time....
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Thursday, April 07, 2005

e' sporean blogs: Sulaiman & Diana Wedding


Wedding Photo
(c)ZuLdaniaL

For those who r still unaware... my sis and abg man got married on the 20 March 2005... Dinikahkan on the 19 March 2005... As promised, here is one of their wedding photo.. Self edited by myself... If you guys wanna take a look at the whole album... then come over my place aight.!
Gtg... wanna get changed... Working night shift today.... adious brothers...
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e' sporean blogs: My Replies

To Anonymous

There is too many 'what ifs' that i have taken in life that only ended up as... "what if i didnt take that step.. wouldnt it be much better"... just dont wanna go thru all that hassle and hurt that i have faced so far... ive come to a point enough is enough... its hurting to be hurt and it hurts also to hurt... u get what i mean?? i think its all in the mind.. phoabia... fear... u name it... its all in me... i think i need more time i guess... when im ready to take that risk... or maybe again... to make things so much simpler.. be the 'slut' dat i was before... on second thoughts... neh!!! been trying so hard to change and i dont want one stupid mistake in my life ever again....

Luv and Like... yes i know its totally different... well of coz.. in this issue.. i wouldnt say there's love.. how can there be love at such a short period of time.. liking?.. yes.. there is... but yet again... its all on my part... i still yet to find out whats on her part...

To Nazri

What u said bout risk bro... somewhat makes sense... its the same as friendship... risk of whether he would backstab u in the end... hmphhh.. dats something common in my life... but why am i ready to choose dat friend and accept all the risk... and am not ready to do so on her part?? simple... relationship is one... friendship... plenty! u get it bro... hahaha... but i get wat u mean thou...

I wont forget what i told u.. take a step at a time... yes... am doing dat now... u know how small my steps are right now... yet again... i just dont wanna rush into things... dont want things to happen too quickly... and she meet up wit my family also happen too quickly... hahaha.. but dat was accidental.. more of a no choice thingie... true bro??... u know the story... story of how im stuck between family and rina... cant just leave her there and then... and cant just ignore my family in need of help... just got to bring both of them together and solve the whole mess...

again... about being the right person?? that gotta need time to analyze... she's great and all.. characters that i look for in a person... not demanding.. not unreasonable... matured thinking... somebody i can relate to... but.. come on ppl... we r still in the process of knowing each other seh... dont tell me a calm sea has no sharks...

well of coz.. there are some bad points bout her dat ive learnt so far.... but those are trivial matters... small the pieces!!!

A Little Update

Just hang up on the phone with her actually..Talked to her awhile... she's sick... sound pretty bad.. but better than yesterday... Think the weather is really bad nowadays... am falling sick soon too... Been in the rain earlier at work for quite a few hours... and the rain over my workplace is freaking heavy... visibility is almost none due to the heavy downpour.. flood in some areas... slow moving traffic... alarm activation in most areas... land slide.. fallen trees... name it... it was like the end of the world for a moment... where everything becomes chaotic.. and your mind just wonders around... hahaha.. think i watch too much armageddon!

after work.. went to Adam Food Centre to grab a bite with my colleagues.. was in the mood for stingray... wow! simply fantastic... marvelous....

had some great food yesterday as well when i was out with nazri.. satay at Lau Pa Sat... simply marvelous as well... hmphhh... whats up with all these cravings??? so what food is next in line?? hmphh... TO BE CONTINUED>>>

Anyway, just got hold of my sister's wedding photos but havent been able to find time to upload to my comp and upload it on the web,.. maybe one of these days... eh naz... maybe someday if u happen to drop by ard my area... come up first... can show u the album since u unable to make it on the real dae.... ok?

Anyway, when are we going on double dates again?? this time our treat lak ah bro... muahahahah....
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he' blogs @ 2:05 AM

Tuesday, April 05, 2005

e' sporean blogs: Pondering Thoughts....

My second dae off... and im at home for almost half of the day... been real busy lately and my body is aching and tired.... but had some good sleep last nite.. was woken up by a call from naz today at about 1pm... and for a moment... i thought i was late for work... hahaha....

Naz had told me some few days back when i was over at his place... "If u didnt had a heart for dat person.. you wouldnt bother to travel all the way and back just to meet her for a few hours..." to think about it... what he said was true... but why am i still denying the fact that i do have some feelings for her... whenever anyone asked.. who is she to me?? all i could say is friends... I dont know what else is keeping me away from going further... maybe the fact that i had too much of unsuccessful relationship... maybe also due to the fact that she is actually wit another guy... although i know she wouldnt go further with dat guy also... but is it fair to just take her away from that guy just like dat... and yes i know... i dont want to rush into things and all... but what if i took things slow only to find out she's taken by another... wouldnt dat be my fault again... maybe whats meant to be yours will be yours... but is dat always the case??? if u dont grab wats yours... it'll get lost one day oso.... been pondering over this for the past few days... and i guess ill still keep pondering...

rina has met up with my family on last friday.... family comments: dats better than ur previous.. i dont know why they have to compare in such way... but i told them... we r just friends... and we wanna keep it dat way... both of us has gone through some pretty shit... although everything now is kind of great... i kinda told her... this is just the beginning... there's lots of stuffs about me dat she still dont know... im not as good as she may find me initially... i did tell her a bit about my past and not all of it... i guess some things is better to be kept and let the other party find out by themselves... its not dat i want her to have a gd impression about me... actually i would rather she know my bad sides rather than my good sides... but i just wanna bury my past... and dont want to think about it again....

Would i change? dats the main concern i have for myself... people say leopards will never change its spots... but now i would say i have changed a bit... but would dat be permanent.. used to change but the more i try... the worst i become when i go back to the same path... i think julie understands what i mean... it must have been patience that kept us going for some time... and i do appreciate dat... but just too bad... some stuffs bout her dat i can never tolerate again...

k guys... gtg... going out to meet ma bro... so take care.. cya again...


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Sunday, April 03, 2005

e' sporean blogs: Peter Pan - Mungkin Nanti

Artis : Peter Pan
Lagu : Mungkin Nanti

Saatnya ku berkata
Mungkin yang terakhir kalinya
Sudahlah lepaskan semua
Ku yakin inilah waktunya

Mungkin saja kau bukan yang dulu lagi
Mungkin saja rasa itu telah pergi

Korus:
Dan mungkin bila nanti
Kita kan bertemu lagi
Satu pintaku jangan
Kau coba tanyakan kembali
Rasa yang kutinggal mati
Seperti hari kemarin
Saat semua di sini

Dan bila hatimu termenung
Bangun dari mimpi-mimpimu
Membuka hatimu yang dulu
Cerita saat bersamaku

Ulang Korus
Tak usah kau tanyakan lagi
simpan saja untukmu sendiri
semua sayang kau cari
semua rasa yang kau beri
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e' sporean blogs: A Special Message


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