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Thursday, April 07, 2005

e' sporean blogs: My Replies

To Anonymous

There is too many 'what ifs' that i have taken in life that only ended up as... "what if i didnt take that step.. wouldnt it be much better"... just dont wanna go thru all that hassle and hurt that i have faced so far... ive come to a point enough is enough... its hurting to be hurt and it hurts also to hurt... u get what i mean?? i think its all in the mind.. phoabia... fear... u name it... its all in me... i think i need more time i guess... when im ready to take that risk... or maybe again... to make things so much simpler.. be the 'slut' dat i was before... on second thoughts... neh!!! been trying so hard to change and i dont want one stupid mistake in my life ever again....

Luv and Like... yes i know its totally different... well of coz.. in this issue.. i wouldnt say there's love.. how can there be love at such a short period of time.. liking?.. yes.. there is... but yet again... its all on my part... i still yet to find out whats on her part...

To Nazri

What u said bout risk bro... somewhat makes sense... its the same as friendship... risk of whether he would backstab u in the end... hmphhh.. dats something common in my life... but why am i ready to choose dat friend and accept all the risk... and am not ready to do so on her part?? simple... relationship is one... friendship... plenty! u get it bro... hahaha... but i get wat u mean thou...

I wont forget what i told u.. take a step at a time... yes... am doing dat now... u know how small my steps are right now... yet again... i just dont wanna rush into things... dont want things to happen too quickly... and she meet up wit my family also happen too quickly... hahaha.. but dat was accidental.. more of a no choice thingie... true bro??... u know the story... story of how im stuck between family and rina... cant just leave her there and then... and cant just ignore my family in need of help... just got to bring both of them together and solve the whole mess...

again... about being the right person?? that gotta need time to analyze... she's great and all.. characters that i look for in a person... not demanding.. not unreasonable... matured thinking... somebody i can relate to... but.. come on ppl... we r still in the process of knowing each other seh... dont tell me a calm sea has no sharks...

well of coz.. there are some bad points bout her dat ive learnt so far.... but those are trivial matters... small the pieces!!!

A Little Update

Just hang up on the phone with her actually..Talked to her awhile... she's sick... sound pretty bad.. but better than yesterday... Think the weather is really bad nowadays... am falling sick soon too... Been in the rain earlier at work for quite a few hours... and the rain over my workplace is freaking heavy... visibility is almost none due to the heavy downpour.. flood in some areas... slow moving traffic... alarm activation in most areas... land slide.. fallen trees... name it... it was like the end of the world for a moment... where everything becomes chaotic.. and your mind just wonders around... hahaha.. think i watch too much armageddon!

after work.. went to Adam Food Centre to grab a bite with my colleagues.. was in the mood for stingray... wow! simply fantastic... marvelous....

had some great food yesterday as well when i was out with nazri.. satay at Lau Pa Sat... simply marvelous as well... hmphhh... whats up with all these cravings??? so what food is next in line?? hmphh... TO BE CONTINUED>>>

Anyway, just got hold of my sister's wedding photos but havent been able to find time to upload to my comp and upload it on the web,.. maybe one of these days... eh naz... maybe someday if u happen to drop by ard my area... come up first... can show u the album since u unable to make it on the real dae.... ok?

Anyway, when are we going on double dates again?? this time our treat lak ah bro... muahahahah....
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he' blogs @ 2:05 AM

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Hmmm.....

U sure got that craving going....

I wonder if Rina is checking ur site.... U might never know... All the blog hoppers like to try different nicks/links. She might try urs and.... *twink*... she knows that u like (a bit of pinchy love) her. Or maybe I can play the fairy God father and get her number and.... hmmmm.... U know that I got lots and lots of "kaki" to do magic!

Anyway, since u get the right note and we are in synch, I bet u know that I like her (as in u together with her). She kinda makes u mellow a bit. Not too soggy but just in tune and she also makes u realise that things are never too... easy. Or was it me that makes u that way? hehehehe! U know, mixing with a mature boyish man...? Hehehehe!

Nevertheless, u are not who u r when first I get to know u. U have changed. If there is anyone who reads this and they know u now, she might consider of having u for a bf.... I think Rina is feeling just that.

Its u that doesnt give her a chance. U lock urself up and u try to keep her away from u. I mean not away, but u pretended to be a fren instead of flourishing her with the love that u had. Thats the reason why things are not getting anywhere.She dun read mind. She dunno and dun feel loved. so, maybe u wanna try to start by sending her a note or a simple bouquet of flowers plus a note. Just a simple, " Hey, this is for u. " will do. At least she will feel that u r taking another step.

Ok, ok.... i m not gonna nag more.

Bout the double date thingy, it sounds great! Only if both of u allow us to choose the place to munch(gobble, gobble!). This time round, its gonna be a bit more of a "stylo mailo" restaurant. I think my pregnant wifey will ask for soem abalone or shark fin soup. Bet its good for the baby... can? That is wat god-father and god-mother should provide.... good money... ehem, I mean good food.

Anyway... Jgn cakap jer boi. Tanye Rina bile dia free? nanti dah plan2, dia yang tak jadi... heheheh!!!

Got to go and get my beauty sleep now... *Yawn
-Charlie Hotel Tango-

By  Anonymous, at April 07, 2005 10:03 AM  

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