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Tuesday, April 05, 2005

e' sporean blogs: Pondering Thoughts....

My second dae off... and im at home for almost half of the day... been real busy lately and my body is aching and tired.... but had some good sleep last nite.. was woken up by a call from naz today at about 1pm... and for a moment... i thought i was late for work... hahaha....

Naz had told me some few days back when i was over at his place... "If u didnt had a heart for dat person.. you wouldnt bother to travel all the way and back just to meet her for a few hours..." to think about it... what he said was true... but why am i still denying the fact that i do have some feelings for her... whenever anyone asked.. who is she to me?? all i could say is friends... I dont know what else is keeping me away from going further... maybe the fact that i had too much of unsuccessful relationship... maybe also due to the fact that she is actually wit another guy... although i know she wouldnt go further with dat guy also... but is it fair to just take her away from that guy just like dat... and yes i know... i dont want to rush into things and all... but what if i took things slow only to find out she's taken by another... wouldnt dat be my fault again... maybe whats meant to be yours will be yours... but is dat always the case??? if u dont grab wats yours... it'll get lost one day oso.... been pondering over this for the past few days... and i guess ill still keep pondering...

rina has met up with my family on last friday.... family comments: dats better than ur previous.. i dont know why they have to compare in such way... but i told them... we r just friends... and we wanna keep it dat way... both of us has gone through some pretty shit... although everything now is kind of great... i kinda told her... this is just the beginning... there's lots of stuffs about me dat she still dont know... im not as good as she may find me initially... i did tell her a bit about my past and not all of it... i guess some things is better to be kept and let the other party find out by themselves... its not dat i want her to have a gd impression about me... actually i would rather she know my bad sides rather than my good sides... but i just wanna bury my past... and dont want to think about it again....

Would i change? dats the main concern i have for myself... people say leopards will never change its spots... but now i would say i have changed a bit... but would dat be permanent.. used to change but the more i try... the worst i become when i go back to the same path... i think julie understands what i mean... it must have been patience that kept us going for some time... and i do appreciate dat... but just too bad... some stuffs bout her dat i can never tolerate again...

k guys... gtg... going out to meet ma bro... so take care.. cya again...


2 comments


he' blogs @ 5:56 PM

2 Comments:

Abt da feelin dat u hav 4 dat lady, if u feel dat there's a chemisrty goin on, y not give it a try..
No harm tryin.. "WAT IF", remember? wat i mean is "wat if" she's da one... If all these while u feel at ease weneva u r wif her, so go on.. U've been tru lots n lots of experiences in relationships.. Try to make a move indirectly n if it fails, then hang on... Da time will come..
"Destiny decides who U meet in Life but it's only ur heart dat can decide who gets to stay in ur LIfe.." Fate playz a part but da rest up to U.. Luv cant b force not even drag it..
"Luv" n "LIke". There's so much diff... Be wise n make da rite move aite.. Hope it will turn out fine... Take cr n hav faith..

By  Anonymous, at April 05, 2005 9:57 PM  

Bro,bro....

Like I've told you. Relationship is bout taking a risk. Its always a risk. Even in frenship. You dunno if your fren would backstab you or play you out later in life. But why u do not choose that fren? its because u do not know that its a risk that u r taking to be frens with that person.

Dude, its the same process with a relationship. U see, the only difference is, in a relationship, u only have that one person and its not to be shared with others.

Like u said to me once, take a step one day at a time. I m doing just that. No rush, but all i can see now, is results. Its great to have someone to love and keep at ur side.

Go for it if u that that she is the right person. No use doubting the "Wat If's" if u do not try it out.

Give your best and if she wants u in her life, I bet she will reciprocate. If she do not, then, be thankful to God that she tells u before u go further in life....

Take things easy dude and follow ur heart...

-Charlie Hotel Tango-


Psst! I got the gut feeling that she likes you. Or at least wants to get to know u more before giving u a chance....

By  Anonymous, at April 06, 2005 10:21 AM  

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