Singaporean History X

Friday, March 31, 2006

e' sporean blogs: 'Celebrity' Friend

ZuLdaniaL Listening to: Toni Braxton - He Wasnt Man Enough For Me

a conversation wit an old friend right after i spotted something on TV...

"sahabat!!!..."

"cheh... Surya masuk Suria seh..."

"cheebai ah kau! perasan lak... malu lah aku!!!"

"hahahaha... apa siak mau malu?"

"nak autograph tak?"

"ptui! autograph kepapai.. mana nyer celebriti
jerr.."

"cheebai!!!"

"tak payah autograph gengs... the so called celebriti tu
pernah draw a potrait of my face before... dat is priceless!"

"ele... kau step masih simpan jek..."

"masih lah babi! aku rasa masih ah... kat aku nyer
wardrobe..."

"rasa rasa aku tak main ah... ko jgn lupa nak tgk nanti
TV..."

"aku tak leh lah gengs.. aku rasa aku dah kuar by dat
time..."

"kau mmg arhh.. tak kasi support... nie ckp
members!!"

"sial ah... aku try ah... k lah tok to u soon..."

"bye..."

so catch dis ol fren of mine on Surya today at 2230hrs, "ish... remaja"... our story goes a long way back... too long and too much to tok bout...

and to think of it.. if i didnt catch the sypnosis of the show on TV i wouldnt have triggered those buttons on the hp to call her up...

apa nyer kawan lah aku nie...

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Thursday, March 30, 2006

e' sporean blogs: V3 - Victory

ZuLdaniaL Listening to: Bali Lounge - Apa

picture urself on a football pitch playing for the finals of some league...

wats ur ulterior motive towards the match... simple... to gain victory and hold the cup.. rite?

u gave ur best... played like it was the last match that u would ever play... a once in a life time thingie... and at the end of it... you lost!

dissapointed...

wat goes on in the mind of the player who lost the match?

one would feel that all the efforts of training had gone seriously to waste.. u put in that much in training and still it wasnt enough for the title of victory...

some says it sheer luck.. and maybe its just luck that wasnt on the 'unwinning team'...

how u wished luck would turn itself around... and prove the whole match otherwise...

as much u want things to change.. u still got to face reality...

u tried ur best... dat matters most... coz in a way... u know u had not let urself down...

a game will always be a game...

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Wednesday, March 29, 2006

e' sporean blogs: Chickie Stalker

ZuLdaniaL Listening to: Wissin Y Yandel - Dembo

fucking cheebai!

she obviously didnt get it...

believe it or not.. my stalker is still sms-ing and been giving the numerous missed calls...doesnt she have anything better to do... too much time and money on her hands???

i cant 'bar' her number.. ive checked.. i can only 'bar' all numbers from calling or sms-ing my phone... wats the point of having a hp if i do dat??

numerous warnings had been given.. and she still is persistant to trouble my life with her stupid messages...

to say i had offended some girl.. i dont think so.. none that i can recall...

i told her that im gonna lodge a report of nuisance calls and sms.. but like fuck rite.. wat do i state in the report... me, a guy being harrassed thru sms and calls from a chick!

mana nak letak muka gengs!

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Tuesday, March 28, 2006

e' sporean blogs: Maid in Uniform

ZuLdaniaL Listening to: Sean Paul - Temperature

felt disturbed reading najie's recent blog entry [ Equality? ]... and i just want to pen down my thoughts to the whole issue..

lets just summarise on what was being mentioned in his blog...

its regarding an incident which he saw while he was taking a stroll at a park.. a small dainty creature known as 'THE MAID' who is wearing a uniform and was following her 'OWNERS' ... and on her was a huge pile of the 'owners' shits which she has to carry...

following the scene was when the maid fell while struggling to keep herself steady with the huge pile of stuffs... she suffered minor injuries...

the so-called man of the family from the owners approached the said maid... kicked one of the stuffs which in turn strike her on the face... reprimanded her infront of the eyes of the public.. and demanded her to carry all those stuffs to where they were seating...

FUCKERS!

dats what i felt towards the owners... what right do they have to do what they did... embarassing her infront of the public like that... reprimanding her like dat... come on.. put urself in her shoes!.. its not easy trying to juggle something so heavy when she is of a small size... and im sure she didnt fall on purpose!

and wats up with the uniform?? its not as if she's the house keeper for some hotel or something... why do they have to humiliate her like dat?? im sure she can wear anything that she feel comfortable and still people knows that she is a maid... wats their point of making it obvious to public that she is a maid?

after all she is still human... and on the other hand.. shouldnt they be thankful that she is there in their family to do the chores which the so-called wife wasnt able to cope by herself...

plain lazy i guess... rich fuckers!

i just dont understand these owners when they sort off ill treat these maids... look at it this way.. they came to Singapore with the one reason.. to work and help their poor family back in their country financially.... and why do the owners have to add to those hardship by treating her like a dirt!

yes! u paid for them to do the chores.. but not her pride!

for fuck sake! give that pride back to her!

another incident which i personally encounter back when i was still a waiter at a restaurant.. let me just paint the whole picture for you...

a family comprising of the parents, a small boy probably about the age of 5 years old and a toddler, walked in to have their dinner at the restaurant... among them was a maid in uniform who is carrying the toddler.. still a common sight for me...

then i brought them to a table for 4 adult seats and a baby chair...

the mother: "I dont need the baby chair..."

"how about this little one, maam?"

"oh.. the maid will take care of that..."

the mother to the maid: "sunarti (not her real name), take marcus(not the baby's real name) out!"

wat a biatch!

so the family had a jolly good time eating while the maid had to attend to their baby son outside the restaurant..

a standard procedure.. i took revenge on behalf of the maid by spitting on the mother's food whilst i was in the kitchen! bastard rite?? but she deserved it!

whilst they were enjoying their food.. or more precisely i would say whilst the mother was enjoying my spits... marcus kept crying loudly outside the restaurant... sunarti was obviously trying her best to make marcus stop...

the mother was then seen standing up from her chair and walked towards the maid.. finally! she at least did her duty as a mother...

and so i thot!

the moment the mother was infront of sunarti.. she(the mother) slapped her once on her face... pushed her head once and took marcus away from her arms... and she walked back into the restaurant...

and the customers that were queing infront of the restaurant were the on lookers to the whole incident...

i was pissed at what i saw.. it must be hurting to her pride... at that point, i seriously felt like 'accidentally' pouring a cup of cold water on the mother!

and sunarti just stood in tears outside the restaurant! inhuman seh the mother...

being the considerate one(yes! yes! im referring to myself), i took a chair and placed it outside for sunarti to sit down...

see what i mean... why are there such disgusting people in Singapore? they are a bad image to Singapore... definitely an embarassment should there be a tourist ard there at that time...

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Monday, March 27, 2006

e' sporean blogs: Nine Lives

ZuLdaniaL Listening to: Dikir Temasek - Satu Bahtera Dua Nakhoda

they said cats have nine lives? how true is dat?

can they jump off from a high rise buldings nine times until they are classified DEAD? or can they get knock down by some blind drivers for nine times till they are again classified DEAD?

didnt think that actually happens.. witnessed a cat being run down by a car.. it was instantly flattened by the tyres.. how can it possibly inflate itself back and collect all its remains and walk away from the accident scene right after that? rediculous...

so whats all this stories bout cats having nine lives? myth or truth?

how bout humans? do we have nine lives too?

the thought came about when i had a conversation with a friend about my childhood days where i nearly died from drowning.. a question he posed: how many of my nine lives had i used up??

hmmm...

assuming that we do have nine lives.. lets just go through my path of life...

assuming that was one... drowning.. talking bout which... i used to have phobia of pools and seas.. believe it or not.. but ive passed through that phobia stage.. now u ask me to swim.. ill make it across from one end of the pool to another with no biggie.... and i can swim from the shore to somewhere where my legs can no longer touch the sand without even panicking... [jgn bual terror lah mat!!!]

i escaped 2 bike accidents with superficial wounds... i seriously hope dats all for my mishap!! so dat would add up to three...

once fell from a great height and landed on my back, probably somewhere from the second floor.. lets not exagerate.. well lets say its almost of that height... dat caused me to have difficulty in breathing.. and i nearly suffocate from lack of air... thats the fourth...

dats all i can recall for now... if we do have nine lives? can i still consider myself safe?

[ konek arh zul.. manusia ada 9 nyawa?.. ko buang tebiat kaper! ]

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Sunday, March 26, 2006

e' sporean blogs: Unknowing Sleep

ZuLdaniaL Listening to: Kelly Clarkson - Everytime

woke up with a very insignificant but yet weird question in my head...

when the hell did i sleep?

the last thing i remembered doing was sitting on my computer table listening to my MP3s... but when did i lift my butt up to switch the room lights off? when did i walk to my bed? when did i place my head on the pillow? when did i start snoring???

its weird when i didnt have any recollection of what i had done and the next thing i know is that i am awake from my sleep! but when did i sleep???

the last time such a thing happen was very long time back... dat was when i got real drunk... during that time the last thing i recalled was to be at Changi.. and when i woke up.. I was at East Coast Park!

i didnt drink.. i had no reason to be drunk.. it was not similar... but how come i dont remember a thing for last night??

pelik tapi benar!

maybe i was too tried and sleepy that my brains automatically malfunction.. or maybe i was put to sleep by god knows who without me realising... yeah rite...

but nevertheless, dat was a good sleep... woke up feeling fresh.. and the first call on my hp only made the process of waking up even better...

Wish #42.7: To have more good sleep!

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Saturday, March 25, 2006

e' sporean blogs: When Talking Dont Work

ZuLdaniaL Listening to: Bali Lounge - Apa

which would be a better choice? pretending nothing happened or talking bout it?

it is always so much easier when both parties just ignores bout everything and lead life like a norm... pretending that anything ever happened.. and slowly letting the whole prob die down by itself..

but how far would dat last?

days or weeks down the road... things will bound to happen again.. simply coz we never knew what went wrong in the first place...

a common statement, "i dont wanna talk bout it!" - how does dat helps in the first place?

when both are hard headed.. none would give in to admit his own mistakes.. do we just let the matter dangle like it is...

when mentioning bout talking things thru.. i see it as pointing out where and how things went wrong.. its not about WHO!

but why is it that when everytime things happens and one starts to talk... the other party keeps finding other faults? to cover up for the mistake that has already been done?

everything that was done never occured to be rite... there would always be a mistake that the said party wants to point out even thou there was nothing at all... which i find is totally rediculous...

wats the whole point of talking in the first place... if at the end of it... both end up really really mad....

at this point of time.. then i would agree to the statement, "i dont wanna talk bout it"

coz simply.. its useless!

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Friday, March 24, 2006

e' sporean blogs: TGIF

ZuLdaniaL Listening to: Raghav - Angel Eyes

TGIF Part 1 - Ashes to Nothing

after a week of seriously tedious training.. i finally got something to look forward to - my off days - the weekends!! yahoo!

did the most unexpectable when i reach home from work.. i guess boredom kicks in too fast for the weekend spirit... i did a major cleaning up to my room... apa angin tah si budak nie??

"spring cleaning?"

"yup.."

"is hari raya ard the corner??"

hahaha.. yeah rite.. mesti hari raya baru boleh spring clean eh? i just felt that my entire room is already in a mess... and it has become an eye sore for me... ive thot of revamping the entire room some time back.. but the only factor that is holding me back is - TIME!

and after so long.. today, i managed to do MAJOR cleaning to this pig sty... cis!~

and here's the best part that i have cleared in my room.. the corner where i spent most of the time when i lock myself up - the computer table... i love it! i love it! i love it!

a great deal of time was spent cleaning that messy table.. lets not forget the ciggarette ashes that are stuck on the corners - work of art by me and my bro... if u knw wat i mean...

and when all is done... my beloved mum had to come into the room and say...

"wanna help me clean my room after this??"

yeah rite.. fat hope.. im TIRED!

TGIF Part 2 - KTM Chocos

got an invitation by fredah to join them at KTM at 10pm to try out the chocs she made.. her chocs in the blog looked so fabulous... craving for chocs ady..

however, today APM would be airing on TV beb... mana leh miss.. sorri sis, i guess i got to give it a pass.. ill join in some other time ait!.. kem slm jerr ur husband and whoever that would b there...

TGIF Part 3 - Finale

basically, i dont really have much in line for tonight after APM.. its always last minute plans anyway.. maybe ill go and party or catch a late night movie or something... i just got to let my hair down for tonight and enjoy myself.. em in a bloody good mood seh!

guess its mainly bcoz the weekdays are over and the weekends are smiling at me...

say it out loud with me ppl.. lets make it a grand one...

* Thank God Its Friday! *

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Wednesday, March 22, 2006

e' sporean blogs: Yummy-licious Question II

ZuLdaniaL Listening to: Chris Brown - Run It

a recent dinner wit fee got us talking bout how i ended up chosing the path of joining the force...

"makdi.. banyak siak anjing!!!"

a common sentence that most 'budak taik' would say whenever they see officers around... i wouldnt deny... i used to be one of them.. sadly to say... but dat was back then.. how would i know dat i ended up being one in the end...

i didnt see myself being an officer during those times.. i figured out that i would be on a desk bound job.. an 8-5... doing some shit work on the computer... an executive maybe...

but things took a turn during my poly days attachment... i was stuck on a desk bound job for freaking 6 months... and seriously... i couldnt take it!

i couldnt live waking up early to go to work on every weekday... ive not been doing that since polytechnic days.. morning lectures?? argh.. forget it! i wouldnt be awake even if i attend..

and being infront of the computer doing my work for the entire work tour was dreadful... my brains was gonna break lose.. my eyes are failing me... and the freaking aircon is just too much for me to take...

halfway through the attachment.. i finally realised [thank god ]... that this was not the career prospect for me.. i just couldnt take everything in the office.. everything seemed all so wrong...

during that time.. i was working part time as well.. in the FnB line.. i enjoyed everything bout it even though it could be strenous running ard the restaurant.. serving people like they are the king.. and me? the maid...

i didnt see things in that way.. i enjoyed the life i had in the FnB just because i could meet different people everyday...

i get to see how 'fucked tub' rich people can be.. and how some can be very humble..

i was exposed to how the rich wanna-be's acted like they are some big shot when they know no shit!...

some are fabulously friendly that i made their time in the restaurant worthwhile...

basically, i love meeting people...

things took a change then.. i knew i needed a career where i get to meet members of the public often.. and not some silly computer... [at this point.. no offence to desk bound staffs, i am referring to myself ]

later, i got to see how the fire fighter fought a case of fire near my home.. wat they did captured my attention.. helping the members of public in distress... furthermore, it was a dream when i was still a small kid... i guess i like the adrenaline that runs when u attend to such fire cases...

lets just skip all those juicy parts.. but i signed myself up to being a fire fighter...

sadly, i blew during the interview.. i guess i was too tired that day itself juggling time that i became an attitudal candidate...

it didnt end there.. i knew i had to do something.. i went thru the next option.. being a police officer..

its a government job.. stability comes with it.. i get to meet different people everyday of my life.. i get to help people in danger.. so why not?

to my surprise.. i made it this time round.. and here i am..

after years of being in the force.. of cause.. i began to realise that police work is not at all like those shown in the movies.. its not everyday out to fight crime.. we also got our paper work to be done of coz.. and it just keeps piling up everytime..

although my life is at stake everyday im out there.. i am happy being what i am..

the once in a while desk bound job that i got to do in the force wasnt dat bad after all...at least i still get to meet different people and i am able to render my assistance...

at the end of it.. its the job satisfaction... if I am happy doing what I am doing.. i have no regrets...

to end of... something that most might probably forget...

...you are sleeping soundly tonight.. because im out there, doing my part to ensure your safety....

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Tuesday, March 21, 2006

e' sporean blogs: Yummy-licious Question

ZuLdaniaL Listening to: Babyface - When Can I See You Again

its kinda sick sometimes when u keep eating the same food everyday... lets not talk bout mummy's cooking.. coz nothing beats that most of the times...

jalan kayu? again?

haji karim? again?

fast food? urghhh!

sakura? newton? prata place? seoul garden?

i give up!

after months of not trying something new.. i finally managed to do so...

met up wit fee after work.. luckily got 'kaki' who is on office hours... with sole purpose of borrowing a DVD from her... but since we ady met up.. we decided to grab dinner together...

CAVANA... a place where both had never tried before.. we must be those 'jakun' fellas who never tried this place although it had been in Singapore for a long time..

it was filling.. sedap seh... we got soup... got vege... got main course... betul nyer jakun nie dua budak...

dats not the point of the whole issue.. it was the conversation we had during our meal... one question posed to me by her...

"What made you join Singapore Police Force in the first place?"

guess dat makes a good blog entry... and it would be my next entry soon..

to be continued.......................

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Monday, March 20, 2006

e' sporean blogs: Family Satisfaction

ZuLdaniaL Listening to: Backstreet Boys - Dont Wanna Lose You Now

seriously, i am not one who is good ard babies who r still small... those that u would need to support the neck when u carry em.. it just seems scary to me to carry something that fragile and alive!

and so i thot!

i tried something out of the ordinary today.. well, out of the ordinary for me in this case... picked up the courage to lift Little Afeeq Danish up from the bed...

i wasnt dat brave enough when Isadora was younger.. i wouldnt mind receiving it from someone else's hand.. coz im quite used to dat.. but to pick him up from the bed directly was definitely something which i have phobia for...

i guess its the never tried it before... and not knowing the tactics of doing so dat made the fear so great...

quite a few things ran thru my mind... will he be in pain?? will he feel uncomfy?? will his neck break?? gosh!

u may call it paranoid... u may laugh.. but for fuck sake... i dont carry small babies ard me everyday of my life rite?

dat wasnt so bad... i made it through the process of lifting him up...

now for the next process...

feeding him milk... it sounded like an easy process for me initially... do i just force the tip of the bottle into his mouth?? or do i do it slowly??

i seriously think there is no sense of fatherly love to a baby in me at this point of time.. a process dat is so simple seemed like a hard task...

but fuck everything.. i was able to do what i intended to do in the end...

managed to find a comfy way for me to allow him to burp as well.. dat was the chicken feet part.. although the way i see it.. he's like not in a comfy position... but since my sis said its perfectly fine... why bother to change rite?

and... he fell asleep straight after.. he actually snuggled himself close to my body... gosh! dat felt so good... i felt a sense of satisfaction... since i did the whole process all by myself...

i guess wat a fren mentioned is true... spending time with your own family is the best thing that anyone could do for the day...

the whole process although it was fast and quick.. there was a sense of satisfaction... being with a family... and during the process... my mum and sis just stood one corner to see... they must be laughing at the idea that my smile was wide, from one cheek to another... a smile that rarely comes by wen im home..

i guess i am busy with my work and personal life that i never do actually took time to be with the people who r supposed to be the closest towards me - family.. i overlooked everything..

maybe wat my dad commented before was also true... you dont treat this home like a hotel.. u dont come and go as you please.. u have to take some time to see who r in it....

dat was back then... and its all another long story to tell...

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Saturday, March 18, 2006

e' sporean blogs: Remember Me This Way

ZuLdaniaL Listening to: Daddy Yankee -Lo Que Paso Paso

the thai version of Casper... dats wat i thot of for the movie Dorm after watch it...

its about a story of friendship between a thai boy and the ghost of thai boi dat died through drowning...

"... never mind you guys go ahead.. i already watched it
yesterday.."

"ermmm.. how was it?"

"my advise.. dont watch it.. its not even
scary.."

"really ah?? ahh.. nvm ah.. already planned to watch it long
time back..."

that was the conversation i had wit Bai... and luckily i did not heed her advice... coz i would only regret not watching a good show...

yes... everyone expects it to be all about horror... it was scary in the beginning.. a few scenes of horror.. but after dat.. the story took a twist for a touching one... it guess it touches the hearts of everyone in the cinema...

it thought us about how sometimes we feel that people dont care about us.. but have we cared bout others on the other hand??

the thai boy proved otherwise.. he showed to what extend someone would sacrifice for a close friend...

how sweet..

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Friday, March 17, 2006

e' sporean blogs: ZuLdaniaL on News

ZuLdaniaL Listening to: Babyface - Loneliness

a few weeks back.. if u had followed through my journey thru this blog.. you must have come across a tag from najie saying congrats for making it into Sunday Times.... im sure u guys are clueless on what that was all about..

i wasnt able to get hold of the papers until today... so i thought i might as well share it with you...

the whole thing actually came about when i posted an entry on the famous Tammy [ Overnight Star ] ...

a few days later... a reporter from Sunday Times emailed me... i quote the email:

Hi hi....

This is XXX from the Sunday Times. I am writing a story
related to Tammy NYP, but it's not about her. It's about some bloggers who want
traffic at their blogs and are randomly inserting keywords like Tammy NYP into
their blogs, hoping that it will draw searches and get people to read their
blogs.

But effectively, they have nothing to say about
Tammy.

Now from you blog, I read that you have something to say, so
I think it's safe to say you're not using her to get attention. But I was
wondering, has traffic to your blog increased since you started talking
about Tammy? Do those who come upon your site ask you for the clip or anything
pertaining to Tammy? How do you feel about it?

Do you think that
there are bloggers who are using her name to gain visitors to their sites?
Have
you come across any?

On a side note, you have Maroon 5 She
Will Be
Loved playing on your blog. It's quite
ironic isn't it? Was it
intentional?

Do let me know if you're comfortable replying my
questions.....

XXX

i was quite disturbed bythe fact that there were bloggers who took such cheap stunt to divert traffic to their site.. so i expressed my views to the said reporter on what i feel on the issue... i shall not make a repeatition on that since its already found on the papers...

and on that weekend dated 5 March 2006.. najie caught a glimpse of my name while he was reading The Sunday Times...

here's a paragraph of the whole article...

Civil Servant Zuldanial Mohamed, 23, was surprised that people would take
such a cheap stunt to generate traffic. "When I first posted an entry on the
issue, I wasnt thinking of diverting traffic to my blog."

if u guys wanna know more.. dig up all those old news papers and find the article.. coz im tired of repeating my views all over again...

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Thursday, March 16, 2006

e' sporean blogs: i dnot need to sepll it out!

ZuLdaniaL Lsietinng to: Bakctseret Byos - Misisng You

tihs is intretsing!

deifinetly!

I cdnuolt blveiee taht I cluod aulaclty uesdnatnrd waht I was rdanieg.

The phaonmneal pweor of the hmuan mnid.

Aoccdrnig to rscheearch taem at Cmabrigde Uinervtisy, it deosn 't mttaer in waht oredr the ltteers in a wrod are, the olny iprmoatnt tihng is taht the frist and lsat ltteer be in the rghit pclae. The rset can be a taotl mses and you can sitll raed it wouthit a porbelm.

Tihs is bcuseae the huamn mnid deos not raed ervey lteter by istlef, but the wrod as a wlohe.

im sure all of you could read all that paragraphs above... and dont you fucking lie...

the explanation to why we could read them is already found inside those paragraphs...

here's the interesting and educating part... the condition as to which we could read all those words is known as Typoglycemia...

Amzanig huh? Yaeh and yuo tecahers awlyas tlod us slpeling is ipmorantt!

now... ive proved you wrong!

ZuLdanial Mohamed
xrayromeo@hotmail.com

16 March 2006

Whatsoever Primary School
Mrs Tan FW,
Ms Lim AK,
Mr Aw BK and
Mdm Wong CH.

Dear Mrs Tan, Ms Lim, Mr Aw and Mdm Wong,

Re: Notice for Resignation

With all due respect, i think u better tender now coz we dont need spelling classes anymore!

Yours Faithfully,
ZuLdaniaL

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Wednesday, March 15, 2006

e' sporean blogs: AMERICAN 'n' Melayu IDOLa

ZuLdaniaL Listening to: Khairil Yusoff - Nadia

lets just save the best for last...

i would agree on this for this weeks American Idol...

coz Chris Daughtry was the last to perform... and he never fail to blow me away again with his rock masterpiece tonight...

i am not a fan of rock... and most of the rock stars never did made their way to my ears... but surprisingly.. he did... i enjoyed his performance the most among the rest...

i think he got a shot at being the next idol.. we'll just see bout that...

lets just push away the American Idol thingie... and switch to Singapore Melayu style of Idol - 'Anugerah'

here's a recent hit that caught my attention which is sang by Khairil Yusoff, one of the finalist for Anugerah... and i believe im the first to have his lyrics over on the internet...

so just layankan lah eh....

Khairil Yusoff - Nadia

tidakkah kau tahu ku masih menyanyangi
leka lena terdengar suaramu
tidak ku lupa bila bersama mu
tapi kini terluka jua

pedihnya hatiku terdengar kisahmu
pabila perbualan ulang
kau di tunangkan dengan jejaka lain
selain ku

bila ku merenung wajah mu yang ayu
teringat sejarah kita berdua
tak kan ku lupa peristiwa bersama
tapi kini kau jauh meninggalkan aku

tak pernah aku termimpi
akan terjadi begini
apa lagi berpisah denganmu
aduhai kekasih ku

oh nadia
ku cinta padamu
oh nadia
kau lah kekasih ku
oh nadia
kembali lah sayang ku seperti waktu dahulu

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Tuesday, March 14, 2006

e' sporean blogs: The Dream - The Truth

ZuLdaniaL Listening to: Babyface - Loneliness

"...dreamt bout u the past 2 nights.."

"wat about?"

"you were screaming... and apparently, i failed to hear coz i was doing something or conversing wit someone else..."

pause

"are you ok?"

"yup.. i dont find anything amiss..."

"i guess its just a weird dream huh?"

"some things change.. gotta live with it..."

"so there was something?"

"i dont really need this now zul.. not now... really... ive had enuff in my life... just leave it.."

line got disconnected...

its depressing i guess...

wen someone who used to share almost anything under the sun turns their back ard and refused to say whats going on in their life...

what went wrong?

i believed i played a part on that.. my sudden disapearance could have caused such major change in youself towards me... and somehow deep down.. i felt like im such a jerk for doing what i have done...

u never ever did turn ur back against me... why should i in the first place..?

but no matter how much i want to explain myself.. you will never see what im facing.. will never understand what im going through.. it was almost of no use to get everything out of my chest...

i am in my own world of denial...

i pretended everything was fine.. i keep forcing that fake smile on my face... sometimes, i feel so much wanna tell people what actually is happening in my life but what do i get from telling? in the first place.. i dont know where to start...

ive been keeping too much to myself too recently... now why does it affect me much wen someone does the same?

a few days back...

"whats wrong wit u bro? this is so not u!"

"nothing...."

"u wait... dont go yet.. ill meet u where ever u r..."

"dont need ah...im already leaving..."

"Dont! please! you tried hard not to for ages... why now???"

"just felt like it..."

"do u look at me like im ur sister?"

"come on dont do this to me..."

"dont do this to you?? zul... i know u k... this is so not u...!"

"Im at Ang Mo Kio... "

"wait up... ill be there..."

"promise me one thing.."

"what?"

"dont ask me whats wrong..."

pause

"promise me dat..."

"you know me better than that..."

"then dont meet me up.. dont force it out of me.. i already felt this bad.. dont make it worst.. please!"

"you have your say... i am so willing to hear u out.. and if i could reach out to help.. i definitely would... dats it.. we will talk wen we meet..."

everything seemed to have gone out of place nowadays... everything seemed wrong...

i dont know when or why things took a change for me.. a few months back things were a lot better... now i just got this huge burden above my shoulders dat im unable to carry... i feel like im gonna break sooner or later...

is it dat hard to ask for a simple life?

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he' blogs @ 8:50 PM

Monday, March 13, 2006

e' sporean blogs: Dream On...

ZuLdaniaL Listening to: Shania Twain n Bryan Adams - From This Moment On

how great it would be if i could just go to West Coast Customs, the one featured in MTV's Pimp My Ride, and transform what I am now into some muscular bodied hunk...

yeah rite... dat would never happen.. never in a million years! coz in the first place.. West Coast Customs deal with cars...

but how corny dats sounds like.. it did happened in the movie that is aired in the cinemas now, 'Date Movie'....

the show is full of corny jokes.. almost the unthinkable are made into something that all of us could laugh at... yeah.. critics says.. its full of lame jokes.. but u did laugh ur heart out in the end rite.. so what r u complaining bout in the first placE?

dats the whole idea rite?.. to make it as entertaining as possible...

the movie captured bits and pieces of ideas/scenes from other well known movies/shows and made it into its own...

a great movie to release the stress in you.. a great movie to laugh it out.. a great movie to end off a tiring day..

speaking of great....

here's to a great friend...

-=[ EPUL ]=-

" Happy 22nd Bdae! "

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he' blogs @ 12:11 AM

Sunday, March 12, 2006

e' sporean blogs: Breaking My Virginity

ZuLdaniaL Listening to: Cassidy feat R Kelly - Hotel

"where u at bro?"

"Lido..."

"wit who?"

"Alone..."

"wassup man.. watcha doing at Lido by yourself???"

"Catching a movie ah bro..."

"alone?? wat seh..."

so it seemed to me this wasnt a one time conversation with one person.. i had such similar conversation with others... and so it seems to me.. many others are doing it as well..

many others are catching movies alone by themselves...

but why?? apparently, i did asked them what was their reason for doing so?? its not like as if they are some losers with no friends.. they do have.. plenty of it.. but despite that.. they still wanna catch the movie alone...

their reasons was simple.. they could concentrate better catching the movie alone...

so a few days back..after years of saying i would try it one day... i decided to catch Big Momma House 2.. ALONE!

so how was it?

in a sentence i would say the truth...

"I WOULD NEVER CATCH ANOTHER ALONE!!!"

i obviously wasnt enjoying the humorous show.. firstly, i think i find it weird being alone in the cinema.. Secondly, an incident stuck me hard just minutes after the movie that my heart and soul wasnt there at all...

well.. at least for once in my life.. ive already tried something which i presume many others had tried... and im gonna say dis now...

that would be my last!

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he' blogs @ 3:21 PM

Saturday, March 11, 2006

e' sporean blogs: The Great Pretender

ZuLdaniaL Listening to: AZ Yet - I Dont Wanna Be Lonely

for the first time after so long.. i felt dumb, stupid and naive...

i should have seen through the pretences.. my instinct told me once.. something aint rite over the whole situation... but back then.. everything was well planned... i had no reason to believe what i had believed... i was pushed to the corner of your denial...

and yesterday, I didnt know why I did... my instinct came back.. telling me that there was something that i needed to know... left with nothing to start with.. i could not poke my finger into the picture... i actually prayed to god.. to show me the light if there was something that i needed to know...

didnt expect my prayers to be replied... but it did... and a bit too soon...

for a moment when i realised the pretences that i was forced to be faced with back then.. my mind went blank...

i was lied to? it was all strategically planned and I failed to even see it? to think of it.. it was someone whom I had given all of my trust...

now all starts coming back.. every single thing that had happened before.. i was thrown into thinking if it was all a lie or pretences... i would very much not want it to be this way.. i hate it wen i stopped believing...

if i fail to see through this pretences of the great pretender... would there be other stuffs up the sleeves...

i guess wat i need now is time.. to start believing again in something that i used to believe in...

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he' blogs @ 10:34 AM

Friday, March 10, 2006

e' sporean blogs: Hokkien Class

ZuLdaniaL Listening to: Nick Cannon feat R Kelly - Gigalo

whats my defination of a blog?

a blog is where a person can 'pen' down his feelings.. his views on certain issues that are happening around him... some could be personnel... and some are just purely general.. whatever they are.. they are meant for sharing to the world... and for the world to take it as some form of lesson in life...

BUT... today my entry gonna be different...

im gonna teach.. yes.. im gonna be a teacher for once...

1st lesson: Hokkien Class..

yes students... im gonna teach u some hokkien today... living in this country where there is a lot of languages around.. it becomes a necessity for to know quite a bit bout the other languages other than ur own language... lets not talk bout English coz that is universal..

and for our first lesson.. im gonna teach u bout numbers in hokkien... dont worry.. i dont need u to write.. coz i know most are lazy... but just listen up... or rather.. read up... dat couldnt be too difficult rite?

how do u say the numbers 2, 6, 8, 8, 9 in hokkien?

"Gi Lak Puek Puek Kau"

u get it?

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he' blogs @ 3:26 AM

Thursday, March 09, 2006

e' sporean blogs: Pantun Bodoh

ZuLdaniaL Listening to: Baby Bash feat Akon - I'm Back

another entry to display my 'pounderful' malay... this happens during a msn chat session with a friend of mine.. identity is not revealed to protect the innocence...

me says:
pantat bodoh!

friend says:
pantat bodo? kimak!..dgr2 pantat ade otak per?

me says:
tak der otak sebab tu dia bodoh... bodoh!

friend says:
bodoh2 boleh blaja muke kau mcm gajah

friend says:
cont zul...

me says:
muka aku mcm gajah pasal banyak ambik ganja...

me says:
cont ah bodoh!

friend says:
hahahha cheeese burger tol

friend says:
ganja kasi mabok tu pasal kau mcm bapok!!

friend says:
hahaha

friend says:
amcm ok tak?

friend.. just sent you a Nudge!

me says:
eh eh...

me says:
nie dah main ganas

me says:
kalau aku bapok asal kau nak kena sibok!

me says:
alamak.. tak best ah.. mcm tak der fight ah...

me says:
ptui!

friend says:
hahhahaha

friend says:
tau pon

me says:
tak per...

me says:
ada lori ada bas.. lain hari boleh balas

me have just sent a Nudge!

me says:
bawah blk ada hantu tetek.. kalau nak reply lincah lah sikit!

friend says:
jap ek

friend says:
hantu tetek bwh blok, jgn smpai msn kau kene block

me says:
eh eh

me says:
nak block org eh?

me says:
sembarg gengs

me says:
teletubbies ada poh... kau jgn mcm butoh

friend says:
atas katil ade bantal prangai kau mcm sundal

me says:
org singh aku panggil bai... kau tolong lah jgn mcm cheebai

friend says:
eh jap..zul..ade catfite la..

me says:
cartoon paling aku tak favourite ialah LuLu... tak per lah dok, aku blah dulu...

me says:
si lion king tu macam raja.... aku dah nak mandi, siap pi kerja...

friend says:
eh yak ala.. nanti ar!!

friend says:
jap jap..

me says:
apa?

friend says:
mlm mlm curik slipper kau tak tau sabar per

me says:
nak sabar pi berenang... lau ckp mmg lah senang...

friend says:
kene eksiden kaki da para, kau jgn sampai aku mara

friend says:
org ckp jin hodoh, aku rase pompan aku tgh gadoh

friend says:
santa claus masok bumbong, lain kali aku sambong

friend says:
aku bnyk macho dulu aku nk settle kan pompan aku dulu

me says:
ahhh... bodoh ah kau.. slamat!

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he' blogs @ 5:12 PM

Wednesday, March 08, 2006

e' sporean blogs: The Psycho Sms-er

ZuLdaniaL Listening to: Usher - Yeah

turned in early despite having a good afternoon nap.. i think i got sick of waiting for my relatives - those that i am not closely acquainted to - to go back home so that i could have the living room to myself.. watching my favourite DVDs in peace...

dat didnt happen...

i dozed off before i manage to even see them leave...

but was awoken by this unsaved/unstored number on my nokia6670 phone...

time check: 0115hrs...

"Nokia - Connecting People".... i obviously dont wanna be connected to people at this hour!

dammit.. who could it be i thot..

i was having a good-ilicious dream asshole!

the fucker hang up the moment i said hello... urghhhh!!!

then an sms came in - "good nite.. sweet dreams.. muaks!" - from the same fucker who called....

then i realised it the same fucker who have been causing annoyance to my life almost everyday of my life for the past 2 months...

i dont know whats her problem for sure.. and to think of it.. i dont even fucking know her... maybe i once knew her... then forgot.. but whatever it is.. she was definitely an unsignificant part of my life...

and for the last 2 months i keep on ignoring her except for occassional - "who the hell are you", "can you like fucking get lost from my life" - smses..

she obviously didnt get the whole picture...

she could send me like 10 sms-es for an entire day without any one of it being replied by me...

i think she's a psycho! definitely... or maybe she's just too fucking rich with too much time in her hands...

fuck everything..

now i cant get to sleep!

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he' blogs @ 1:43 AM

Tuesday, March 07, 2006

e' sporean blogs: Ego-istic Talks

ZuLdaniaL Listening to: Frankie J feat Baby Bash - Obsession

which is bigger? my EGO or urs?

dats the one question that keeps on playing in my mind...

there were many a times... in our path.. ive always been giving in.. forgiving and forgetting was a norm.. just dont wanna make it a biggie... it doesnt matter wat.. it doesnt matter who started the shit.. coz at the end of it... im the one who will be saying the big fat word - "SORRY"

i guess i just had enough of quarelling over the most smallest little micro stuffs...

and now for once... i had enough of it... for once.. i want to be the bloody bastard with the big fat ego...

and even thou so... u still expect me to patch and mend those broken bits...

u know wat girl... fuck ur ego.. ill just wait and see how far ur bloody ego goes...

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he' blogs @ 8:57 PM

Monday, March 06, 2006

e' sporean blogs: The FORBIDDEN Love

ZuLdaniaL Listening to: Chi Chi Man

we had a good laugh... a very good one...

i was just hanging out with my colleagues after my shift ended... when one had a story to share...

it appeared that it was in the news but i havent read bout it as yet...

back in malaysia... a man was caught making love to a goat!

so what was the outcome of the entire story of forbidden love making?

the man had to pay 'duit hantaran' or dowry to the owner of the goat...

getting married to a goat? i wonder what would be the outcome of that...

just too juicy not to share...

em still searching for the newspaper article to verify the truth in the story... maybe u guys can enlighten me...

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he' blogs @ 11:18 AM

Sunday, March 05, 2006

e' sporean blogs: Lost n' Found

ZuLdaniaL Listening to: Daddy Yankee - Rompe

"dok... the 2 year old kid found ady..."

Right: Nonoi

dat was the exact words dat naz told me during a phone conversation yesterday... u have no idea how happy i was... my face was beaming with joy... the only thots that come into my mind... the parents must be relieved at this point of time... finally... the search for the lil one comes to an end... it wasnt for long... until naz said his next words...

"dead!"

"wat?"

"dead..."

"shit! fuck! u mean... she's found dead?"

gosh! there was a total change in my expressions... maybe i felt for her loss a bit since the incident of her missing happened during my own shift... everybody was patrolling during that night when there was nothing to attend to... hoping.. somehow or rather... we'll come across to that little one...

"stepfather..."

"huh? u mean.. the stepfather killed her"

another total change.. ANGER! for goodness sake! she's a 2 year old... what was the stepfather thinking when he did the bloody act... cold blooded bastard.. i thot to myself... wat does he achieve from all this!... dammit!... if he doesnt want that lil one.. ill be more than ready to adopt her as mine lah...

she's such a cute thing... and its sad to see her gone in this manner.. in the hands of someone whom she's close to... someone she calls as 'Dad'....

she obviously doesnt deserve all this...

and I just hope that the cold blooded bastard would just rot himself away in hell!

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he' blogs @ 1:39 PM

Saturday, March 04, 2006

e' sporean blogs: Meeting the ONE

ZuLdaniaL Listening to: Rihanna - Pon De Replay

im sure you know that you will come face to face with the one thing that almost everyone of us has fears in... u know its there.. but you dont know when it would meet u... or rather.. u would meet him... every step u take in ur life is just another step towards him.. time will tell... but even how prepared you are... fear will still be engulfed in ur mind...

DEATH... the world of the unknown...

but what if one day... u knew that its about time for u to meet him... u knew damn rite for sure.. and u could tell the way u would meet the one thing that almost everyone fears in... just by looking at the clues... from pictures...

dats what happened in Final Destination 3...

apart from the images of death that the lead actress gets... the clues are also found on the pictures that she took on the day of the mishap where a few 'lucky' ones - so they thot they were lucky - escaped their death...

without realising... death are creeping back at them.. hitting them with the worst imagined death situations possible... unimaginable.. not a slow and painful death.. but sudden... smacking straight onto their faces...

i shall not venture the ways that they died.. coz that would only spoil the adrenaline u would have if u are planning to catch the movie...

a word of advice... not to eat before the movie... seriously... a person like myself who can stand gruesome stuffs.. almost vomited looking at how they died.... my stomach was whirling throughout the movie... lucky for me.. it was half empty...

on my part.. i strongly recommend the movie... it was worth my money.. maybe im just a sicko - psychologically challenged - and love the gruesomeness in the movie... if u r as sick as me.. please be my guest...

and dont come telling me that u r going to watch it on DVD or VCD... coz the effect will never be the same.. not unless u have a big screen and the dolby sound effect that they have in the cinemas...

a question that pops in my mind...

if u r given a choice to see the way you are going to die.. would u even take a peek at it?

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he' blogs @ 10:31 PM

Friday, March 03, 2006

e' sporean blogs: Its First

ZuLdaniaL Listening to: Dinodi - Hadirmu Membawa Sinaran

exactly a year back... i started this whole world of blogging,...

and a year later.. im still actively blogging... dats the whole beauty of blogging... i get to see what was in my life a year back.. and what i have gained or missed out a year later...

here's an entry to mark the first year of zuldanial.blogspot.com...

hope i get to see u guys again the next coming year...

cheers!

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he' blogs @ 11:27 PM

Thursday, March 02, 2006

e' sporean blogs: Blew Me Away

ZuLdaniaL Listening to: Fuel - Falls On Me

he definitely blew me away with this song....

i finally managed to view the current on going American Idol... been busy the past few weeks and ive missed out on a lot...

so being bored at home.. i decided to switched on the TV and only found myself watching American Idol..

and then it was Chris Daughtry's turn to show off his talent... he sang a song by the band Fuel.. and i particularly like this one from Fuel... an old favourite...

it was a short performance.. less than 2 mins i guess... but within that short period of time he got my eyes glued to the TV and my ears listening attentively to his performance..

simply marvelous! good voice... there was great stage presence... finally a great talent shown after watching the first 9 contestants whom i feel is of no match at all to him...

i definitely gonna give my supports to him... that is if he still maintains that standard....

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he' blogs @ 9:39 PM