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Monday, October 31, 2005

e' sporean blogs: By Request

ZuLdaniaL Listening to: Eminem - Mocking Bird

by request... this person wish to appear on my blog.. dia ckp dia nak tumpang glamor... apa yg glamor sangat pun aku tak tahu...

and as informed by him.. my entries are lengthy... so ill try keep this entry as short as possible.. i repeat.. I TRY...

the name's farhan... if im not mistaken.. we knew each other back when i was 18.. that makes it 4 years of friendship... werent very close initially... but we started hanging out often.. and he became one of the peeps...

he's one of those whom i would describe as outgoing and friendly... never shy to start a conversation with a person... a joker most of the time.. never failing to make a person laugh... badut circus aku rasa...

isnt much of a party go-er but he is 'jahat' in his own way... but that was before... once left the peeps in order to make a change... fearing that we are of influence to him.. sejak bila kiter ajar kau jahat dok???

i guess everyone changed for the better soon after and we managed to keep everyone together again...

difficulty expressing himself when he has a problem... keeps to himself most of the time but not showing it out to others...so u dont really know whats going on in his mind...

purely 'laser'... is direct with his words.. and can sting u where it hurts you the most... but its for your own good.. kalau org tak point out.. sampai bila pun tak tahu where u gone wrong...

as a whole... a great friend... a reliable buddy... a power kaki... tapi sikap malas tu tetap ada... i guess its in the peeps... kalau dah malas.. malas terus...

this is for the ladies... a choice for sharing ur life with... pandai masak.. pndai cuci kain.. pandai gosok.. settles most of his house chores... very independent and reliable... orang bodoh jerr tak nak...

ive tried to make this short.. but i guess i simply cant... still looks lengthy to me.. if i want to go on blabbering bout him.. it will never seem to end coz there are just simply lots of story to tell....

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Sunday, October 30, 2005

e' sporean blogs: Stay and Leave

ZuLdaniaL Listening to: Whitney Houstan - I Have Nothing

was presented with this paragraph by a friend... not much of an explanation was given.... thus' i have to go into some deep thoughts to figure out what the paragraph is all about...

and when i finally get it figured out.. trueness!

in general.. in life.. how many a times were we given some kind of hope... be it in actions or words.. hope is the thing that keeps a person to move on in their life... to excel... to pursue further whatever that is in their minds.. and to pursue a dream...

let me just give an example of what has been blabbered on the previous paragraph... a fine example which most tom dick or harry encounters would be one where a person gives hope to love... gives hope that its leading to something... hope that down the road would be something heavenly or pleasant... hope that its not just something that goes down the drain...

these hope can be in the form of actions.. whereby a person shows some form of affection towards another... showing interest in the other party... and dont mistaken these interest and care as the same... coz a person can care for another and not have the affection at all...

and hope can also be in the form of words... a simple I LOVE YOU... can mislead a person... a person can never go wrong into thinking that its leading to somewhere when a person says I LOVE YOU...

and after all these hope.. how many a times were we let down... when we feel its leading to somewhere.. after the actions or words... the other party starts ushering us in some way or another... ushering us out of the person's life... making us feel unwanted.. useless in their life..

pain-ness....

but thats life i guess.. everyone must have undergone it in some way or another... but as much as the truth hurts... we learn from these encounters... making us aware of what would the outcome be in the near future...

but yet again... most of the time its pretty unpredictable... like what my teacher once told me,....

" you'll never know until you try... "

BY REQUEST!!!

upcoming would be an entry about.... [ see picture below ] .... stay tuned for that...

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Friday, October 28, 2005

e' sporean blogs: Feeling Kereta

ZuLdaniaL Listening to: Adam - Haruskah

woke up pretty early today... no idea why... but anyway... log myself into the internet and chatted my time away wit fee on MSN...

was chatting bout the new car that her dad is getting... and how great it would be for her to be able to drive around during the weekends... kinda miss my old family car pulak! ermm... on second thoughts.. neh its ok.. this family is better off without a car.. at least theres not so much of bickerings around...

well.. in the midst of the chat... fee asked what car is my favourite?

seriously... at that point of time.. i dont have a personal favourite.. didnt really mind what model it would be if i am getting a car... dah ada kereta dah cukup bagus seh... but since she was persistant... here's a list that i actually favour on top of the many cars in the market...

nissan sunny, subaru impreza wrx, mitsubishi lancer...

then i was surfing around the web for Hyundai Accent, which is the car which her dad is getting...

then, i cam across something!!!

it was the car that i used to be crazy about... and now looking at the picture once again.. im falling for it once again...

i must have forgotten bout cars and all ever since i had a bike... didnt really bother to open my eyes to see cars like before.. coz now.. i just love looking at the bikes... the big ones! dammit! u all just wait.. ill get the big ones soon! wahahah...

presenting to u my favourite.. pernah dan masih gila-gila kan... Toyota RAV4... [i would prefer it to be in black]

thinking back....

i could still remember the first time i laid my eyes on RAV4... my first thought was, " I WANT THAT CAR!".. if i was a rich man's son.. i would already lay my hands on it without much of a difficulty..

RAV4 gave me an impression of a trendy, sporty and an adventurous car... and with its fabulous design... it is definitely a car thats best for a young driver.. personally for me, i think it completes my fashion statement!

and some few months back.. i did actually saw a malay guy about my age driving his own RAV4... dammit! managed to create some simple conversations with him about the car... i think he noticed me eyeing his car... as i was in my uniform.. i think he had not much of a choice but to continue the conversation as well...

i wonder how he is able to maintain a car at my age range.... and the thing is.. he's a MAT TAPPERED!

ok.. i think lets better not stereotype... he could be working hard to maintain a car... if he did... i just take my hat of him...

for now... all i could do is dream about the car... and in another few more years.. if I am more stable.. i might consider getting myself one...

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Tuesday, October 25, 2005

e' sporean blogs: Kaum Adam Bercakap

ZuLdaniaL Listening to: Anuar and Ellina - Suasana Hari Raya

was bloghopping and came across this interesting post... it really made kaum adam look bad.. come on.. we are not dat heartless.. well at least, tak lah semuanyer sama... ada lah yang lebih selalu digelar oleh kaum hawa sebagai "JERKS"... mungkin lah mereka yg berpikiran sedemikian...

well... ive modified the post by adding what i would say in each of the situation... modifications are in red....

Kalau perempuan lawa pendiam
Lelaki akan cakap: woow, ciri-ciri isteri idaman...
AKU CAKAP: eh.. boring sak dek nie.. tak tahu apa topic mau bukak!
kalau perempuan tak lawa pendiam
Lelaki akan cakap: eh tak reti komunikasi betul...
AKU CAKAP: mak di!! dia nie pun sama... mendak siol...

kalau perempuan lawa berbuat jahat
Lelaki akan kata: musti ada krisis dalaman nih...kesian
AKU CAKAP: confirm... BITCHY!
kalau perempuan tak lawa berbuat jahat
Lelaki akan cakap: dah la tak lawa, perangai pulak hodoh...
AKU CAKAP: mak ai! buruk sak perangai...

kalau perempuan lawa menolong Lelaki yg diganggu
Lelaki akan cakap: heroin sejati...!
AKU CAKAP: malu.. malu..... mana mau sembunyikan nie muka!!!
kalau perempuan tak lawa menolong Lelaki yang diganggu
Lelaki akan kata: taktik nak ngorat le tu...
AKU CAKAP: eh thanks... tak sangka ada jugak yg nak tolong...

kalau perempuan lawa dapat Lelaki hensem
Lelaki akan kata: beruntungnya la....
AKU CAKAP: matchmake in heaven... so sweet...
kalau perempuan tak lawa dapat Lelaki hensem
Lelaki akan kata: kesian..mesti kena bomoh lelaki tu!!!!
AKU CAKAP: beruntung ah pompuan tu... jgn jgn lelaki tu ngan pompuan tu for money.. dasar dayus!

kalau perempuan lawa ditinggal kekasih
Lelaki akan kata: buta kayu betul mamat tu....
AKU CAKAP: matchmake heaven gone wrong.. wat a pity... agak agaknyer.. which one yg tak setia eh...
kalau perempuan tak lawa ditinggal kekasih
Lelaki akan kata:...patut pun kena reject...
AKU CAKAP: kumbang bukan seekor... maybe he's just not meant to be yours...

kalau perempuan lawa penyayang binatang
Lelaki akan cakap: perasaannya halus...penuh kasih sayang
AKU CAKAP: dats so sweet... tapi jgn lah terover sangat....
kalau perempuan tak lawa penyayang binatang
Lelaki akan cakap: sesama keluarga memang harus menyayangi...
AKU CAKAP: sweet jugak... tapi kalau over.. meluat!

kalau perempuan lawa bawa BMW
Lelaki akan cakap: musti anak org kaya nih.....
AKU CAKAP: makdi!! kaya siol...
kalau perempuan tak lawa bawa BMW
Lelaki akan cakap: mesti tlg kwn dier parkingkan kereta nih.....
AKU CAKAP: dek nie pun kaya jugak nie!!

kalau perempuan lawa tak mau bergambar
Lelaki akan cakap: pasti takut kalau2 gambarnya tersebar
AKU CAKAP: mak ai!... mana peh nyer jambu jerr tak nak ambik gambar... bleh jln ah minah!
kalau perempuan tak lawa tak mau bergambar
Lelaki akan kata: sedar diri pn...
AKU CAKAP: spoiller ah dek nie! satu gamabar pun tak nak!

kalau perempuan lawa menuang air ke gelas lelaki
Lelaki akan cakap: caring sungguh....
AKU CAKAP: eh thanks.. tak yah aku penat penat nak tuang sendiri...
kalau perempuan tak lawa menuang air ke gelas lelaki
Lelaki akan cakap: nak tunjuk caring le tu....
AKU CAKAP: ala.. buat susah jerr... but thanks..

kalau perempuan lawa bersedih hati
Lelaki akan cakap: dont worry..i will make u happy forever
AKU CAKAP: nie asal lak nie.. kesian lak...
kalau perempuan tak lawa bersedih hati
Lelaki akan kata: sikit2 nak nangis!! mengada2 tul...
AKU CAKAP: eh what happened?? come on.. u r stronger than that....


kalau perempuan lawa masak
Lelaki akan kata: dah la lawa, pandai masak pulak tu...
AKU CAKAP: susah mau dapat... lawa and knows how to cook...
kalau perempuan tak lawa masak
Lelaki akan cakap: ntah sedap ke tak????
AKU CAKAP: susah nak dpt pompuan tau masak nowadays... mau testing jugak product...

kalau perempuan lawa main2 miss call
Lelaki akan kata: takpe...
AKU CAKAP: irritating sak... nie mesti starhub.. aku kena call balik...
kalau perempuan tak lawa main2 miss call
Lelaki akan cakap: ko ni takde keja lain ke... sibuk ni tau..
AKU CAKAP: aiya... jgn jadik irritating boleh tak!

kalau perempuan lawa hantar2 msg/ email
Lelaki akan kata: sukenya....
AKU CAKAP: yahoo! but too much tetap jadik irritating...
kalau perempuan tak lawa hantar2 msg/email
Lelaki akan cakap: balik2 muka dia...boringnye......
AKU CAKAP: nak forward kat siaper pulak eh nie msg/email...
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he' blogs @ 4:22 AM

Monday, October 24, 2005

e' sporean blogs: Drives me Nuts!

ZuLdaniaL Listening to: Febians - Untukmu Sayang

a reflection about relationship....

a relationship is where all the different forms of emotions takes place... and it just takes that one person to change your mood from one to another... at one moment.. you can be happy... smiling and laughing away... and just a word.. and it takes just a word from your other half to change that emotion of yours... u can turn into a state of sadness.. anger...

what drives you nuts in a relationship?

when in a relationship... sometimes.. we are pushed to the limits.. we are caused to think bout some factors beyond what our mind could accept.. and u feel totally lost.. everything seemed weird.. if u go on further.. u are going crazy sooner or later...

trueness!

its been driving me nuts as well... ive been hooked to an old song which ive just recently downloaded.. now.. without fail.. i will have it repeated in my playlist... its not something catchy.. its slow and the rhythm is somewat normal.. im still wondering how i got hooked...

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Sunday, October 23, 2005

e' sporean blogs: Star Karat

ZuLdaniaL Listening to: Exist - Hilang Dalam Ramai

22.10.2005

"Meet you at 6pm at eastpoint... Ko jgn terlajak pulak ZuL!"

"Neh.. I'll be there..."

and like they predicted!! i never woke up.. was awoken by Fee's call at 6pm.. and I really thought its 5.30pm... I must have been exhausted after all those long hours at work...

lagik tak tahu!! dgn lincar kadok aku pi mandi.. siap... and rush my way down... i must have been speeding or something.. and I reach Eastpoint just in time for buka... "STAR KARAT!!!"

sampai tak sempat cari parking lot!! pavement pun jadik ah... luckily tak kena saman!..

they had reserved a table at Sakura Family Restaurant... it has been a norm for the peeps to eat at sakura together at least once on every year's fasting month.. this year was no different... the only difference was that they chose my birthday to be the date...

the menu?? as usual.. our favourites.. tom yam soup, sambal kangkong and hotplate beancurd... these 3 dishes is a must have... kalau tak order... gaduh besar nie!!

and i was surprised by what they had gotten for me....




i almost bought the slippers yesterday while i was walking around the previous day.. luckily i didnt... they also got me another collection for my landyards.. decided to use the landyard for my keys.. coz my hp's landyard is still new.. furthermore.. gila kaper mau chuck one side.. sentimental value eh.. Rina belikan eh... ;)

thanks for the prezzies peeps!

after the meal.. we headed down to Geylang... and there.. when we wanted to park at the pavement.. we spotted PREMAS giving summons to the other bikes at the pavements... MAKDI!! tak pakai otak kerr?? peh ribut kat geylang... where to get available lots?? furthermore.. its like a norm to park at pavements during the fasting month at Geylang... and to make things even worst.. the PREMAS people are malays themselves... i feel that they should be flexible... as long as these bikes are not parked in a manner causing obstruction to other road users.. isnt it ok?? those bikes are parked neatly on one side of the pavement for goodness sake!

we are not taking chances.. we decided to go over to the Haig Road.. which is further up and find ourselves a nice place to park...

and geylang was freaking packed... we were sweating non stop... lots of pushing here and there by the shoppers at Geylang... did some shopping of our own there.. we were really exhausted and hot at the end of it....

23.10.2005

without realising.. it was already midnight.. we left and headed down to east coast to just sit around and enjoy the wind.. we must have ordered too much of wind and it started pouring soon after...

and of all topics for the day.. we talked bout kiamat... hearing the different stories and views.. it really made us realise that its near... and we reflected ourselves and how ready we are.. we are nowhere close.. but to compare ourselves back when we were like 2 or 3 years ago.. each of us had made some changes to ourselves..

well.. nobody can change overnight.. we are just giving ourselves time...



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he' blogs @ 3:52 AM

Saturday, October 22, 2005

e' sporean blogs: Eve of 22nd

ZuLdaniaL Listening to: Mariah Carey - Dont Forget About Us

yesterday... managed to grab hold of something that would add to my collection of shoes... it fits just so nicely.. and it looks good on my favourite pair of jeans.. i think its just made perfectly for me and my usual outfit..

gonna make this shoe 'seasoned' first... masih bau kedai!



all thanks to my colleague, Norain.... this was one of the things that made my day yesterday... although it was a bit rough for me earlier on in the day.. things took a change gradually.. at the end of yesterday.. i was a smiling man!


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he' blogs @ 9:14 AM

Thursday, October 20, 2005

e' sporean blogs: Unexpected Emails

ZuLdaniaL Listening to: Mamat - Ku Pohon Restu Ayah Bonda

remembered one of the earlier entry of mine regarding a traffic patrol unit officer from Ang Mo Kio Police Division who met an accident and died during the call of duty??? [ Another Life Lost ]

never did i expect that i do get replies on it even thru emails.. there were a few.. mostly sent out by people who knew the said officer... and most of the emails are to say thanks..

however, there's one of the emails sent out to me that was painstakingly sad.. in a way i felt the grieve felt by the family members... just wanna share it with all of you...

she wrote.... [unedited]

" Assallamualaikum, Zul..

u will b surprised when u received tis email..i got it from ur blogs n im sorry if i 'enter' without ur permission.i email u its bcoz i had read bout the story of Allahyarham Noranzor..

saya, wakil pada keluarga Allahyarham ingin mengucapkan terima kasih krana berkongsi sedih & bersimpati dgn keluargannya.. Sebenarnya, saya sepupu kuat pada isteri Arwah(Kak Norwaty)Kita sekeluarga bukan hanya simpati dgn Kak waty tapi si kecik(Noraniza)..lebih sedihkan lagi bila si kecik tanya, 'Ibu,knapa muka ayah ada kat sini?(referring to the article)knapa ayah tk balik2,bu?Ayah tk syg kat adik,eh?How u feel if u were kak waty??..

anyway, we, the family of Kak norwaty berterima kasih skali lagi krana mendoakan pada arwahnya bersama2 dgn org yg beriman.. Sayangilah keluarga sepenuhnya sebelum terlambat...
pada Zul & rakan2 yg bertugas seperti allahyarham,berhati2 melakukan tugas kalian.....

TERIMA KASIH..WASALLAM "

to the family members and loved ones of Staff Sregeant Noranzor Abdul Latiff, kuatkan semangat... im sure what kak waty needs now is her family... stay by her side... we all know its not easy for her...

in the mean time lets just all doakan for allahyarham...

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he' blogs @ 6:07 AM

Wednesday, October 19, 2005

e' sporean blogs: Octoberians

Mum: 19 Oct
Myself: 22 Oct
Dad: 27 Oct

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO ALL!

disputes between my mum and myself never lasted long.. we would be ok after awhile... and so the so called unplanned gathering wasnt something that is solemn.. we smiled.. we laughed.. we had our own good time...

we used to have 4 birthdays in the family before my elder brother got married (02 Oct) ... and its a norm to celebrate our birthdays on my mum's bdae... 4 in 1... [good family planning eh?]

but this year was a bit different.. my elder bro couldnt make it.. engaged at work.. just too bad.. u missed the cake bro!

off to bed now.... sleepy seh....

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he' blogs @ 11:54 AM



e' sporean blogs: Long Awaited

ZuLdaniaL Listening to: Wang Lee Hom feat Candy Lo - Hao Xin Fen Shou

there was a few issues that was faced by the peeps for this year's hari raya visiting..

initially it was the date... it was hard to set a date that was aggreeable to all.. personally, i dont have much of a problem cause i can take leave any time due to the eligibility of my leave balance.. whereas for the rest.. some are on shift work and some on office hours...

we started on the 12th.. but bai was unable to get an off as there would be no one mending the shop.. the other supervisor is on leave himself.. hari raya clashes with deepavali as well.. so we postponed it to be on the 19th... all aggreeable?? aggree!

then there was another issue on the color of our baju kurung.. i dont know who came out with it in the first place... personally i had planned to wear black for this year's clothing... and then they decided all to wear black... i have no objections... its the color that i planned anyway!

but when i was walking at Geylang some day back trying to find one that suits to my liking.. my eyes was captured by this particular color... light purple... being the well known indecisive person that i am... i had a change of color... sorry peeps... tak kan nak semua sama color.. mcm langsir bergerak seh....

and then the main issue.. mode of transport???

this year.. we had enough bikers to accomodate for those without bikes.. just perfect... but we overlooked one pointer... fee is lady.. tak kan pakai baju kurung pompuan bawak motor sport kan?? she tried it before some months back during a wedding function and a lot of her thighs was exposed!! that was a one trip.. not so bad... but hari raya.. it'll be a lot of trips altogether... kesian lak kalau every trip dia nyer thigh keeps exposing...

going public is also not quite a welcoming idea... not much could be covered in a day.. and its a hassle to go up and down the bus.. MRT... and waiting for taxis... and the time of journey.. URGHHH!!!

if i rent a car.. firstly its costly for a day.. and secondly.. not all can fit into it.. some would still have to travel on their bikes... boring ah gini mcm...

then i got a 'lobang' for renting mini buses.. but its through balloting.. if i get.. i get.. if i dont.. just too bad... no harm trying.. i applied for it...

it must have been weeks until the results comes out...

dont worry peeps! we'll raya with a minibus for this year... its the first year where we are able to travel in our own transport and everyone gets a seat in it...

yahoo!

shit! im late for work!

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he' blogs @ 5:47 AM

Monday, October 17, 2005

e' sporean blogs: Long Lost Scent

ZuLdaniaL Listening to: Jim Brickman - Love of my Life

a walk down the road... and sniff!!!

there it was.... the scent i have longed not smelt... turned around... it wasnt who it was supposed to be... and soon after it brought back the memories... it was never lost... it was kept way deep inside... very deep indeed...

we used to spend great time together... i could never think of an occassion where we did had a quarrel... not even a single bickering between us... all i could see between us is laughter and smiles...

ur scent.. was something that is unique... something i dont usually get from the ordinaries... and i could still remember ur scent after shower... the soup u used.. the shampoo.. i remember it all...

i used to just spend the whole day looking at you... i can spend the whole day on bed wit you doing nothing and just look at you... i can just sit beside you and take short glances at the side once in a while... love the way your hair just falls nicely across ur face... love looking at those eyes.. love looking at those lips... loved every part of it...

and even when the others are warning me of you.. i didnt moved away... cause they dont see what i see in you...

i cant help but think.. with all the good things i felt when im with you... life is a bed of roses....

but... BULLSHIT!!!!

in just a moment... u changed it all... u wanted to let go.... i moved back.. i retreated... i landed myself up into depression... i think... looking back... i should have grab back whats mine.. but yet again.. i dont think it was worth while rushing for something that wasnt mine.. if u think that separation could bring u happiness.. i would let it go...

depression : some had seen me gone thru that process... where everything in my life seemed to take a turn for downfall.. i was not able to make ends meet... everything just seemes difficult...

slowly... i started forgetting the scent, the hair, the eyes, the good times..... somehow i was afraid of forgetting it all... coz i never wanna forget what we once had... i kept the remains deep and hid it away... hid it from the others...

years passed... and seriously.. im still waiting for a moment where we would meet each other by chance outside.. and when that moment comes i wouldnt know what would be my reaction... what would be the words that come out...

maybe.. i would just walk away and not say a word... i wouldnt know..

until the moment comes...


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he' blogs @ 11:10 AM

Friday, October 14, 2005

e' sporean blogs: Conversation Went Wrong

ZuLdaniaL Listening to: Simple Plan - Untitled

a recent conversation with a total stranger took me by surprise... was not trying to be rude.. but was just trying to create a conversation... but it all went wrong..

let me first give a brief view of the whole situation...

was on my normal foot patrolling at orchard rd during the wee hours of the morning... from far.. i spotted a couple and another person sitting ahead of me... as my partner and myself approached... the couple left... as usual.. it sparked off questions as to why the couple left in a hurry upon seeing us... decided to make a check...

managed to stop the couple...

but what i would refer to in this entry had nothing to do wit the couple... it was the lonely man sitting alone...

i decided to approach him instead whereas my partner went over to the couple...

the initial conversation... i felt there was some kind of hatred in him.. but could not figure out what it was... he was all "slangy" with his language... and i decided to ask him the next question.. which proved to be the point of disaster.. the point where i started to get pissed with him...

"Are you local?"

"Why? Do I look Malaysian to you?? and yeah.. I am Singaporean!"

"Sir, Im just trying to make a conversation here..."

"Yeah... and im trying not to answer to your question!"

you might take it as a joke.. but seriously it isnt... he wasnt smiling... nor was he keen to answer the questions that i asked...

it didnt stop there.. our conversation started to get real nasty.. and every bit i felt pissed looking at the way he answers to my questions.. but i managed to maintain my cool.. i wasnt going to give in to him and appear angry if that was what he was trying to do to me...

so from the conversation.. i learnt that he was an ex police officer... so dat explains why he knew quite a lot about what he can or cannot do during the conversation...

so here's my analysis... he was going thru a tough time in life and me making a check on him was not improving things at all.. but what i dont understand.. why him... lets take things as general.. why do people show their negativity whenever things take a downfall in their life...

why dont we be positive??

it was clear that he took everything in his life at this current point of time as negative.. he no longer sees things as wonderful... every little thing to him is at his disadvantage... seriously i pity these kind of people.. and i meant it sarcastically...

there are others out there with bigger problems.. and yet they took it well.. it just proves one thing.. they are strong... strong enough to face these downfalls...

lets take a good example.. my own aunt.. a housewife... her husband is currently in ICU... she's left to take care of her four schooling children... according to the doc he would be half paralysed...

and my recent visit to the hospital.. she was smiling.. she was laughing.. she held interesting conversations with people... but i swear... her eyes gave it away when i talked to her... she was definitely hiding her sadness and fear... but she was strong... she didnt want to show to people the worries shes having and the sadness in her...

but what about my other aunts and my grandma?? they showed the exact opposite of the aunt in question... a small talk about my uncle caused them to be in tears... at a certain point of time.. i was pissed with my own grandma.. she talked like as if it was the end.. she kept on saying.. what if he goes away....

why these negativity....???

shouldnt we be showing support instead... negativities will bring down the hopes of the other party....

well of coz... i gave a good piece of my mind to my grandma for giving such remarks... if she wants my aunt to be strong.. shouldnt we, the people behind her supporting, be even stronger???

i think i got my message across.. my grandma started smiling soon after...

so bottom line.. i think as individuals.. we should be strong enough to face all challenges and problems... showing our weakness and fears would bring the morale down.. and of coz.. it doesnt improve anything to the whole situation at all....
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Tuesday, October 11, 2005

e' sporean blogs: Another Life Lost

ZuLdaniaL Listening to: Mariah Carey feat Westlife - Against All Odds

it happened on the sunday...

was on my way back home when i passed by an accident on the road... a car had skidded and crashed into the central divider and went on the opposite side of the road.. from the looks of it... there was not much chance of survival for the people in the car...

and when i came home.. i was informed of a news concerning the life of a fellow officer...

he died during the call of duty...

if u had followed up with news... im sure you are aware of the accident concerning an officer from the Traffic Patrol Unit of Ang Mo Kio Police Division... it was stated that he had commenced duty at 1300hrs.. and at 1420hrs, his motorcycle had skidded and landed on the grass verge of the central divider...

the accident happened along Yio Chu Kang Road before Tamarind Road.....

i have a soft spot for officers whose lives were lost during the call of duty... maybe its bcoz being an officer myself, I could relate to what was going on during the incident... although i dont know him personally... i felt sad hearing the news...

earlier today while i was at work.. i managed to grab some time to read the newspapers... flipped through the pages and i came across an article regarding the accident...

it was reported that the officer left behind a wife and a young daughter... the wife is 4 months pregnant at this current time... there was also a picture of the wife in tears when the commander of Ang Mo Kio Division handed over the state flag and a peak cap as a sign of respect....

written there... "I dont know what to do"... as reported on the papers.. the officer made all the decisions in the house.. now that he had moved on.. the wife is left with all the decision making... and at no grace period.. she became the head of the house with a blink of an eye...

the article saddened me further... it was sad seeing the family lost someone dearest to them...

to all officers out there.. please take care of yourselves while on ur call of duty... things happens without realising... in whatever situation... just do not be complacent.. i wouldnt wanna see such a thing happened to someone i knew...

and as for me.. i would also do the same...

my condolences to the family and loved ones of 'Staff Sregeant Noranzor Abdul Latiff'.... may ALLAH bless his soul...

AMIN...

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he' blogs @ 9:45 PM

Monday, October 10, 2005

e' sporean blogs: RinazuL Innovation

ZuLdaniaL Listening to: Dayang Nurfaizah - Kau Pergi Jua

i definitely have to do something to this room of mine.... let me list out why:

1) im sick of the setting... arghhh.. i always come home looking at the sorry state of the room... like its screaming at me... PLEASE DO SOMETHING ABOUT IT!
2) it looked crammed up... I NEED TO BREATHE!!! i barely have place to roam ard in the room...
3) sadly to say its humid... the wind is not coming in.. due to simply my poor designing of the room during my previous change to the room... a quarter of the window is blocked by a cupboard! how bloody stupid! and the wind from the ceiling fan is blocked by the upper deck of my bed... (its a double story bed.. the below being a queen size bed and the top being a single bed....
4) my tables seemed to be untidy no matter how often i tidy it up...
5) I JUST HATE THE VERY SIGHT OF IT NOW!

and ive decided to revamp this room.. do a total change.. surprisingly.. Rina too had the same idea for her rrom.. she too needed a revamp... we've planned to go down to ikea somewhere in december to grab some of the stuffs that we need for our room...

and she's decided to make it a competition between us... who is able to make a total change to the room... taking into consideration the time and cost of reconstructuring...

"RINAZUL INNOVATION" - title of the competition... id take it more as a title for the BIG project...

the judges?? would be you readers out there.. yes! U LAH!...

so i guess for the next few months.. ill be entering some entries as and when a new change is made... no change can be done over night right??.. not by amateurs like us trying to redesign the room ourselves... furthermore.. i have to take into consideration that my younger bro is sharing the room with me.. and he is not chipping any funds to help either.. thanks bro.. its so like you.. ;)

for now.. i will keep the identity of my room as confidential as possible.. except to some who had entered my room before... and when everything is complete.. i will do a detailed write up...

so u want competition?? lets compete! hehehe....

we take it slow k dear... wahahaha.. no rush...
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he' blogs @ 12:12 AM

Friday, October 07, 2005

e' sporean blogs: Tantrums

ZuLdaniaL Listening to: Jay Sean - Stole

Tantrums...

an expression of intense or immediate frustration.... in a very common term... a very bad temper...

everyone goes thru that phase in their life... almost avoidable.. it just comes up as and when the situation arises... be it when u r a toddler, a teenager or even adulthood... everyone shows their tantrums in some way or another...

lets take for example.. a toddler... tantrums are shown by hurling themselves on the floor... kicking around... screaming until they are red in the face...

as for adults... they show their tantrums in another manner... they tend to grab anything and throw it around.. slam on doors.. cause injury to themselves... some may fume and seethe quietly... whereas others might lash out with hurtful words or acts...

but nevertheless... these anger tends to fade with age... BUT it doesnt go away... humans will continue to show their anger or tantrums.. and it all for just one thing.. to get their message across.. that they are unhappy or frustrated over something....

personally... i myself do show my tantrums once in a while whenever i get frustrated... but it really takes a lot to get the worst side of me out.... worst case scenario... i would throw fragile items around... my family had seen that... and they know when that occurs... its best to just let me be by myself...

sometimes its really uncontrolable... when ur emotions began to take over control of ur mind... u cant think straight!... dats one thing for sure... but recently... ive successfully placed my emotions under control... simple... but it works.. taking in a few deep breaths... try it to believe...

again personally... i can tolerate most of people's tantrums... i usually will never take it personal.. coz i know that they never do really mean it most of the time.. its just anger... but yet again... i can never tolerate tantrums when im the one being scolded at or hurled with hurting words.. when the problem isnt concerning me at all!!!

in layman term.... "throwing your tantrums around"

i can be there to listen ur anger out.. but to shout and make me feel that im a part of it all... dats untolerable... those hurting words directed to me is uncalled for... watch it.. coz once its smashed.... it'll never be able to come into one piece perfectly...

[3 deep breaths]

hmphhh... im almost to okay now...

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Tuesday, October 04, 2005

e' sporean blogs: Fasting Month

ZuLdaniaL Listening to: Aqasha - Embun

how fast time flies...

tomorrow the muslims would be starting our fasting month.... a month full of challenges... control against temptations of food, drinks.. temptations to the eyes... watching whatever that comes out of the mouth.. watch the language! temptations of ciggarettes... thats the biggest challenge for me i guess...

a good month to go dieting and quit smoking...

nevertheless, im still gonna try to accomplish what i had planned for this fasting month... insyallah!

to all muslims out there... " Selamat menunaikan puasa di bulan ramadan "

and for the first day of puasa... im gonna sahur at kerja.. mendak seh... people sahur wit family... me sahur at work.. but if i look at it in another perspective.. its also good.. i dont have to force myself to wake up.. coz! im already awake!

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Sunday, October 02, 2005

e' sporean blogs: Haunted Castle

ZuLdaniaL Listening to: Don Omar - Dale Don Dale

yesterday... saturday night....

met up wit the peeps... but this time we tried to do something unsual... something we dont normally do on a normal saturday... while others are busy out watching some late night movie... or clubbing and drinking and dancing the night away(the peeps dont anymore... well at least very true for me)... or having some bbq pit or chalet...

on this saturday night... we r out for some paranormal activities...

they were out earlier to play bowl initially... but i was tired out after helping najie shift house... so met up wit em much later... after the clock strikes midnight!

met up and discussed on where we should head down to... the plan was set.. we r heading to Tyersall Ave.... before that... to the petrol kiosk.. we need torchlights!

the gate that greeted us at Tyersall Ave was enough to send shivers down our spine... eerie!!!... subsequently.. it was a very long walk in before we do get to catch a glimpse of the castle... that sent adrenaline thru our body... it really looked like in the movies...

pictures are better than words... here's a photography journal of what happened during the whole journey.... [ Click Here ]

the pictures are mostly bright due to the great flash i have on my camera... but seriously.. its pitched dark in the castle.. even with our torchlights!... to get a feel of how dark it is in the castle... take a look at the video footage of Bai pretending to be a reporter... documentating on a vintage toilet! Unedited! [ Click Here ]

overall... it was quite an adventure for us.. but seriously.. i dont find it as scary as Old Changi Hospital which we visited like 3 years back! its been a long time since we actually went out in search for paranormal activities... and visiting one after so long... truly brings old memories back...

we didnt felt or see much... not until bien decided that we stay in the hall.. without any lights... and remain silent for 5 mins... epul was supposed to set the alarm but he pretended to... so in the end we remained silent for more than 5 mins...

during that period... all of us.. heard, seen and felt different things... for like example... epul, shah and myself heard something walked down the staircase... and in the end... we felt something standing just behind us! all of us caught a glimpse of a white figure pass thru from one door to another... and myself and shah saw a balck figure peering out of the darkness to take a peep at us... it was towards the end of the silent moment and finally An broke the silence...

"dah 5 minit lum???"

phew.. everyone switched on their torch lights and we headed out... away from the castle.. thats where we talked about what happened... everyone felt something... we knew if An had not broke that silence... the ''thing' was definitely coming... we felt it... it was a matter of time that it was going to reveal its identity to us.. but we arent taking chances...

it was not worth taking chances with supernatural stuffs!

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he' blogs @ 5:11 PM

Saturday, October 01, 2005

e' sporean blogs: Yellow Box + Bali

ZuLdaniaL Listening to: Iklim - Bukan Aku Tak Cinta

SMOKERS!! Here's an update for u guys... ermmm.. i mean US!

im sure many are still unaware(smokers especially) of the latest development... the smoking ban was extended to more public places as of today...

one such place of concern is the bishan bus interchange... notices were pasted on the walls to notify the public about this development... i hope this notices are big enuff for the ppl to see... coz i am not surprised if there are still who do smoke due to the simplest reason.. we r simply unaware....

aniwae... as reported on the news... within an hour, officers from the National Environment Agency caught five smokers in the act.... Two elderly smokers in their 60s got off with a warning... but unluckily for a 19-year old smoker... he was AWARDED a S$200 fine!!!

wait... did the NEA officers waited in the area just to catch on these people!

i personally feel dat its a bit too much to fine someone on the first day of launch... maybe a warning would be great... as the notice just kicks in today.. they should give smokers a chance to learn about the new notice... if i am one of the peeps there.. i would be caught off guard.. coz simply... I AM NOT AWARE!

i onli got to know about this while i was surfing channelnewsasia.com to find out about the blast in Bali that just happened today as well... if i had not surfed about that.. i will still be in the dark till now....

maybe they should implement yellow box for smokers next.... i am not surprised that one day.. they would implement a room for smokers in a public place.. and u have to pay an entrance fee to enter!!! we just see....

aniwae... while i am having this typed out... bali is still blasting away.. earlier.. it was reported there were 2 blast... now?? 4!!! please just stop!!!! stop killing all the innocents! bali was just recovering well after the previous blast.... which is in october 2002, i think.... and now... shish!

please just stop!

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