Monday, October 17, 2005
e' sporean blogs: Long Lost Scent
ZuLdaniaL Listening to: Jim Brickman - Love of my Lifea walk down the road... and sniff!!!there it was.... the scent i have longed not smelt... turned around... it wasnt who it was supposed to be... and soon after it brought back the memories... it was never lost... it was kept way deep inside... very deep indeed... we used to spend great time together... i could never think of an occassion where we did had a quarrel... not even a single bickering between us... all i could see between us is laughter and smiles...ur scent.. was something that is unique... something i dont usually get from the ordinaries... and i could still remember ur scent after shower... the soup u used.. the shampoo.. i remember it all...i used to just spend the whole day looking at you... i can spend the whole day on bed wit you doing nothing and just look at you... i can just sit beside you and take short glances at the side once in a while... love the way your hair just falls nicely across ur face... love looking at those eyes.. love looking at those lips... loved every part of it...and even when the others are warning me of you.. i didnt moved away... cause they dont see what i see in you...i cant help but think.. with all the good things i felt when im with you... life is a bed of roses....but... BULLSHIT!!!!in just a moment... u changed it all... u wanted to let go.... i moved back.. i retreated... i landed myself up into depression... i think... looking back... i should have grab back whats mine.. but yet again.. i dont think it was worth while rushing for something that wasnt mine.. if u think that separation could bring u happiness.. i would let it go...depression : some had seen me gone thru that process... where everything in my life seemed to take a turn for downfall.. i was not able to make ends meet... everything just seemes difficult...slowly... i started forgetting the scent, the hair, the eyes, the good times..... somehow i was afraid of forgetting it all... coz i never wanna forget what we once had... i kept the remains deep and hid it away... hid it from the others...years passed... and seriously.. im still waiting for a moment where we would meet each other by chance outside.. and when that moment comes i wouldnt know what would be my reaction... what would be the words that come out... maybe.. i would just walk away and not say a word... i wouldnt know.. until the moment comes..." And like a fool who will never see the truth,
I keep thinking something's gonna change.... "
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