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Tuesday, February 28, 2006

e' sporean blogs: 1 in a Million

ZuLdaniaL Listening to: Exists - Mengintai Dari Tirai Kamar

somebody told me that im one in a million...

why is dat? i asked...

coz u r the only one out of the millions of sperms that made it to the egg...

rite....

get it?

so basically... each and everyone of us are one in a million in a way... speaking of eggs and sperms... recently, a friend of mine just found out that she's preganant...

shocked!

then we sat and talk... to abort or keep? i guess thats the question everyone would face.. well of coz.. the question only pops out when the couple is unwed...

abortion would be the first thing in my mind.. seriously... i wouldnt even dare to break the news to my family members... wat a selfish thought... dont judge first... read on...

but on the other hand.. its already a sin to have sex before marriage... its not acceptable in terms of religion... but however its a bigger sin to abort... killing the innocence...

she told me that she can feel the thing in her.. when she lies down.. she can feel the extra heartbeat somewhere in her stomach.. obviously not a sign of hunger...

after which.. it seems to me.. if im in her bf position.. after much consideration, i wouldnt wanna to abort.. its my own flesh and blood... it would be kinda sad to throw it away...

there are couples out there who are trying their best to produce their own.. and when we get one.. we want it to be thrown away... dats the easiest way out i guess...

but on the other hand.. to have it made known to family members is a bigger issue... what would be the reaction of the parents.. imagine having to see ur own mum crying and feeling regretful for having to bring up a child and in the end only to find out that she gets preganant before marriage.. or for the guy's place.. getting someone pregnant...

wat would the relatives think... dats another whole different story to think about..

i had a discussion with CT over the matter... we guess keepin would be a better choice after all... if our parents are gonna be angry... it would be there and then...

relatives on the other hand... let them talk.. sooner or later.. they are going to be tired and the story would somehow end and die off somewhere...

well at least, we r brave enough to own up to our own mistakes and not make a bigger mistake after that....

well, for my friend's case.. the bf is more than willing to be responsible for his actions... as for the mother who is carrying the small one... she's having a great deal of thinking and choosing of having to abort or to keep...

in the end... its her choice after all... she's the one carrying it... its up to her to decide...

for a moment.. i felt how great the pressure it would be on the mother... as for the guys.. the ultimate decision would still be in the girl's hands.. if she keeps.. we jolly well be responsible.. if she decides to abort.. that would be the loss of another innocence...

its sad to see a fren going through that stage... and lets just let this be a lesson to all...
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Sunday, February 26, 2006

e' sporean blogs: Overnight Star

ZuLdaniaL Listening to: Adam - Haruskah

it has become the talk of town.. 'Tammy'... a name dat is not alien to Singaporeans...

she became a star overnight after her handphone was stolen.. wat a downfall.. losing something as precious as the handphone.. and only realising that the contents are distributed all around...

things got way out of hand and it reached across our causeway... over at M'sia... i heard they have made it into a DVD and VCD selling at RM10 and RM20 respectively...

dat only increases the shitty situation that she is already in...

on top of that... the news are talking bout her.. people on the streets are talking bout her... bloggers are commenting on her... everyone.. everyone knows bout her..

now was all that necessary?

now lets not add fuel to the fire.. things are big as it is... and personally i feel that all these are just simply injustice to her...

im sure she didnt decide on shooting her sexual scene with the intention of distributing and becoming famous like she is now...

can u imagine the state she would be in now?? put urself in her shoes... gosh..

i never would want to capture myself having sex and save it in my handphone.. its just too risky...

just a kind reminder to all...

and to all those who still dont get it... stop emailing me and asking for the video.. u want it?? Grab it [ here ]
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Saturday, February 25, 2006

e' sporean blogs: A Note

ZuLdaniaL Listening to: The Wonders - All My Only Dreams

sahabat,

im sorry i cant be there to share the joys of your life... work commitments does not permits...

you told me how time flies.. how true indeed.. it seemed like it was just yesterday that we were those crazy, wild and naughty teenagers... but without realising... each and everyone of us are moving forward in our life...

and i still cant get over the idea of time.. it felt like i was only 13 yesterday... but i forgot.. dat was 10 years ago...

no matter what it is...wishing the both of you a great life ahead of you...

khas buat Bai and Bien....
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Thursday, February 23, 2006

e' sporean blogs: Simple Life

ZuLdaniaL Listening to: Hetty Sarlene n' REM - Hampa

jealousy n envious.

i got envy and jeles when i saw najie's new skin... dammit! dat looks so good...

i needed to revamp this sickening looking skin... i got sick of it...

while i was in search of a great layout for my blog.. i went into a sudden state of... i dont know what the hell its called anyway...

i just felt disturbed for no obvious reasons.. nothing happened in my life... there was no sudden incident to cause the change...

in a blink of an eye.. i felt that i dont belong here at all.. saddist rite?? dats what i thot to myself... i felt like i shouldnt be in this world in the first place.. everything was going wrong... maybe.. just maybe.. i think too much!

then.. i saw a skin dat was simple... then i decided.. dats what i need... a simple layout...

this time.. i decided to minimise on the pictures... or better still.. not have any of it at all... i felt that the idea just suits me for the time being...

screaming.. im screaming.. for just a simple life ahead... simplicity... splendid...

at least.. im smiling looking at my blog now...
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Wednesday, February 22, 2006

e' sporean blogs: Not Too Long Ago

ZuLdaniaL Listening to: Jay Zhou - An Jing

some of you might be wondering... heads full of ????... wats up with the chinese song...

i came across the song while i was doing my favourite past time.. surfing at youtube.com... the song brought me back to my teenage years... back when I was 18 or 19....

dont ask me why... i liked his songs back then... JAY ZHOU... believe it or not.. i bought his album back then.. with the fact that I am not very fluent in my mandarin myself... wondering why even to my own self...

but i liked his concept... RnB and HipHop...

around that period of my life, i grew up in the era where RnB and HipHop was at its peak... just walk through any clubs... most would be playing that genre...

you would see the hiphop wannabes dressed up in their oversized outfit... basketball jersey... sweater...(gosh! its a club dammit and its hot.. why a freaking sweater??) and the ladies in their body hugging tops and pants...(ooo... I like)...

and please... if u r wondering if I was one of the wannabes... NO! dat time step mana peh abg abg lobang jerr... i guess it was the age group that i mixed around with dat I personally am not interested to be one of the wannabes...

case of "hanyut": reflecting back... 18 was the age where i did a lot of stuffs that I would never believe I would indulge myself in when I was younger...

when I was younger, i told myself... "sejahat jahat mana... pegang rokok jerr lah"...

yeah rite! curiousity kills the damn cat! i was pretty much easily influential at that time... theres always a first time to everything... I thot...

lucky for me... hanyut tak lah sampai ke mana... setakat di situ sahaja.. there was no strong addiction or anything... dammit.. lets leave ciggarettes out of the question for now...

things took a change few years down the road... i shall not go into that for now... else.. my entry will never end...

for now... lets just enjoy the song above... while i think back on the memories back then...


Zhi sheng xia gang qin pei wo tan le yi tian

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Tuesday, February 21, 2006

e' sporean blogs: Home Sweet Home

ZuLdaniaL Listening to: Anuar Zain - Semua Untukmu

This marks the 200th post for my blog... just how fast time flies these past months...

a form of good news... sis and Mohamed Afeeq Danish are back home safely... everything looks well... healthy...

gonna be busy now.. entertaining my newest nephew...

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Sunday, February 19, 2006

e' sporean blogs: The Bus Ride

ZuLdaniaL Listening to: 2 Play - So Confused

a bus ride recently brought about the reunion together with an old friend.... as a matter of fact... it really seemed like a drama... a make-belief... too splendid to be true...

I was on the bus.. a boring journey indeed... until it stopped at a bus stop.. then as I was looking out of the window... a familiar figure caught my attention.. an old friend... but just too bad... he wasnt looking at my direction..

then as the bus was about to move.. he turned... our paths met.. naturally.. i raised my hands to acknowledge that he had been seen.. and he did the same...

i thot that was all... but it didnt...

earlier today.. got a call on my home phone... dats weird... my friends seldom would call my home...

surprisingly.. it was the same friend that i saw on the bus few days back...

so moral of the story... if i hadnt been on the bus and if we our paths didnt cross each other.. he wouldnt be searching for his old phonebook in search for my number.. and lucky for us... i m still at the same old house using the same old number...

so its not a bad idea after all taking the public transport, eh?
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Saturday, February 18, 2006

e' sporean blogs: The Strong Willed

ZuLdaniaL Listening to: Extream - More Than Words

17 February 2006

My sis finally gave birth...

But unlike most.. where we could say the line.. "she gave birth to a healthy baby"... i was not able to say the same for my sis...

the first place 'junior' had to go was the ICU....

let me just relate the story to you.....

17 February 2006 @ 2.28am

I was outside with CT when an SMS from my younger bro came in... it changed my mood drastically...

"Kakak dah bersalin. But ? baby in ICU weak and suffocated...."

the first thing that came into my thought,... that cant be! i left home earlier at about 12.30am and she was still laughing away with me...

i wasnt able to visit my sis nor 'junior' until earlier today right after my night shift...

the moment i saw her lying on the hospital bed... i felt a sudden rush of sadness... my own sister.. lying there.. obviously weak!...

my sis gave birth to junior roughly at about 1.30am the previous day... according to her... 'junior' didnt moved at all the day before... not even the occassional nudge... that caused an alarm... so after i left home... they decided to go to the hospi to make a check... a scan on the heartbeat was done...DISTRESS!... thats all that was made known.. there was a distress in 'junior' 's heartbeat... his heartbeat was beating very slowly... and thus they needed to get 'junior' out asap...

Caesarian Birth - dat was what my sis gone through...

throughout when I was at the hosp... minor activities like even sitting up took a long time... i could see she was in pain and withstanding it... but even thou so... she didnt want any help... the moment my bro-in-law wanted to help her with sitting up.. she said, "Dont touch me! Let me do it myself..."

"If i keep depending on ppl.. ill never be able to recover fast.."

It was disbelief to hear that from my sis.. being the petite type... she really do have lots of strong will in her...

she managed to sit up after a while... and took some time to get out of the bed... walked a bit around the ward.. and finally get herself seated on a chair...

then she stood up again... walked a bit more... sat herself on the bed... and get herself lying down once again...

these activities that takes us less than a minute... took her a long time.. and not forgetting the difficulty and pain.. but she did it all by herself...

then she got up again... and made our way to the ICU as I wanted to see the new addition to my family... furthermore, my sis has yet to see her son after giving birth to him...

meet 'junior' - Mohamed Afeeq Danish

he's more stable now... hopefully, he adopts my sis's strong will and get really well soon...

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Thursday, February 16, 2006

e' sporean blogs: TV Mania

ZuLdaniaL Listening to: Don Omar n' Mr Vegas - Pobre Diablo

im tired of typing now... wanna sleep.. so lets just let the pictures do the talking... here's my division's annual dinner and dance 2006, "TV Mania"

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Friday, February 10, 2006

e' sporean blogs: Where Id be Without You?

ZuLdaniaL Listening to:

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Wednesday, February 08, 2006

e' sporean blogs: Not Another

ZuLdaniaL Listening to: My Style

06.02.2006 @ 2.45pm

a date i wont forget.. a near death experience... but im thankful i was given another chance...

imagine you are travelling back to home... you are only a few traffic lights away... and suddenly u noticed a yellow car just beside u on ur rear right... and when u turn to check again.. u felt a bump from the rear.. then dragged a few seconds coz ur tyres seemed to be stuck onto a moving object.. and when u managed to break free.. u skidded and while u were skidding.. u saw a fast moving car flashed infront of ur face...

at that time, i was already leaving my life to the hands of fate... and when i felt i had come to a complete stop.. i checked if there are any incoming traffic coming towards me.. phew! lucky... and i turned towards the front.. a yellow citicab... dat caused a bit of anger... and then the driver stepped out.. a female driver.. dat blew my top...

"what the fuck are u tryin to do?"

that was the line that greeted the driver when she came to me...

and guess what.. she said she didnt see me... for fuck sake! im not fucking small... how can someone not see something that is ahead.. i should be the one saying i didnt see her... i dont have eyes at my rear!

fuck it! i was not gonna listen to her stupid version of story.. not for another minute... told her to lodge whatever she want to lodge.. and ill do mine.. let TP investigate... and let our insurance company do the work...

but obviously she wasnt happy dat i wanted to lodge a report.. she did mention is it possible if we dont lodge... coz shes worried that she might not be able to drive a taxi anymore..

"i understand your concerns... but who is going to pay for my bike repairs??... eh good enough lah.. this hospital bill i dont ask for u to pay me then and then.. we settle everything thru insurance... no more arguments"

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Saturday, February 04, 2006

e' sporean blogs: ENUF!

ZuLdaniaL Listening to: Tyrese - I Cant Go On

STOP IT!







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Friday, February 03, 2006

e' sporean blogs: Sick of Stories

ZuLdaniaL Listening to: Taufik Batisah - First

i cant stand the bitching of some people sometimes... why do they have to spread around stories.. make some juicy stories... dat only hurts the people of concerned...

what do they benefit from it all??

especially when stories evolve ard a few people... each will bound to have doubtful feeling...

which story is the right one? which is being truthful? who can u trust?? just too many questions popping up in ur head...

it just aches sometimes... arghh... fuck the world ah.. do me a favour.. just stab me with a dagger from behind...

why cant they just leave matters as perfect as it is... i dont think dat would be too difficult rite?

why cant they all just SHUT THE FUCK UP!
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Thursday, February 02, 2006

e' sporean blogs: Some Stories

ZuLdaniaL Listening to: Westlife - I dont wanna fight no more

why does some love stories ends up dat way...

here's something for you guys to ponder and reflect upon...

finding someone whom u would want to share your life with is not an easy task... it doesnt come with a blink of an eye... u dont wake up one day and its right infront of you... walla! dats the one... in fantasy love stories.. it might... not in reality...

but what if that someone had arrangements behind ur back that u r unaware of... something some of your mates knew.. but kept quiet...

what if.. that someone's parents had match-make that partner of yours?

sounds impossible in this modern context... at the same time feel betrayed that it was not made known sooner?

im surprised too... how could it be?? i thot such things dont happen???

of coz.. no parent in the right state of mind would match make someone useles... someone known for a good for nothing.. it would be someone who is of a good status... someone they know could fulfill the duties if being married to their children...

lets cut everything short...

given a choice... " Someone who is financially stable and would guarantee a good future ahead... or someone who is just ordinary financially... but with an added point and that is someone whom u r happy with... which would you choose? "

ive gotten my answer.. and its nice to hear dat not all are materialistic..
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he' blogs @ 1:51 PM

Wednesday, February 01, 2006

e' sporean blogs: Considering

ZuLdaniaL Listening to: Sharifah Zarina - Langit Ke Tujuh

I'm not avoiding YOUR questions!

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