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Monday, January 30, 2006

e' sporean blogs: Bullshit n' Truth


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Friday, January 27, 2006

e' sporean blogs: Its Official

ZuLdaniaL Listening to: Siti Nurhaliza - Air Mata Ibu

its official now... ive officially ended the DTT course... ive gone through that 3 full weeks of training... and hell yeah it feels so great...

officially.. i will no longer be on office hours... no more early sleep at night.. no more of waking up early in the morning... no more privilage of a saturday and sunday off.... im welcoming the frequent late nights out with the peeps...welcoming it with open arms... hip hip hooray!

now its back to shift work... starting from tommorw... night shift!

but on the other side.. im not even looking forward to being back in team... after 3 weeks of break from paper work.. patrolling... meeting of members of public... damnz! dat all feels so good...

i would need some minor adjustments to get myself adjusted to wat i was before the 3 weeks commenced...
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Thursday, January 26, 2006

e' sporean blogs: Indecent Part II

ZuLdaniaL Listening to: Peter Pan and Siti Nurhaliza - Mungkin Nanti

so afad posted her views towards the topic on indecent ponderings.... i certainly agree with her... these are just point of discussions... u may discuss now as partners before marriage.. and you would say stuffs like its ok... we can adopt a child instead.. but when u r married and such a thing happens... things might differ...

yeah rite.. fuck to the points of discussion... true??

you would be pushed to a point of somewhat called a depression... accepting the fact would be hard for the opposite partner... and would even be worst for the bearer itself...

it certainly wont be any easier for the bearer as the main problem would lie in the said person's fate... but if the other partner chose to leave... what can the bearer do... helpless... but nevertheless, i feel that its a punishment not meant to be... the bearer didnt ask for impotency...

the bearer didnt pray he/she would be impotent... rite?? why leave?? wont leaving make the person feel even worst?? so much for the thing called true love...

well... we all do understand... everyone wants to have their own child... a child which they can call their own... but if its god's will that you wont be blessed with such an opportunity??? whats the next course of action??


hmphhh.. im having that in my head now too afad... its a difficult point of discussion... it'll be even worst for the person facing it... rite?

now let me share the point of view from siti when i asked the same question earlier...

lets skip to the 2nd question...

"wat if u are already married and you only realised that you are impotent?"

ill kill myself seh... like there's no point to live ady seh...

wat a saddist...~
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Wednesday, January 25, 2006

e' sporean blogs: Indecent Ponderings

ZuLdaniaL Listening to: Khai - Dambaan Pilu

zulherman and i were having a conversation on a particular topic during one of our smoke breaks... and i feel that its a topic dat would be worth pondering about.... at least for a second of your time...

he asked.. what if one day you get married... and only found out that your wife is impotent??... what would you do?

on my part, i feel that since its destinied that way... then i just got to accept fate... even thou its hard to swallow.... its not her fault that things turn out that way.. its god's will...

there are options available.. like adoption... i dont mind adopting a child if my wife's impotent.. at least ill try to bring the child up the way i would if its my own.. in the long run.. the affection to the child would grow and maybe it would also slipped out of my mind that the child was adopted.. i would already treat it as mine...

well of coz... technology is great nowadays.. if im not wrong... there are other ways to fertilise the egg using the husband's sperm,.. without even going through intercourse... i think ive heard that somewhere.. or was it in the movies?? hmmm...

and then... zulherman asked the next question..

ok.. then wat if u are already married and you only realised that you are impotent?

my answer... sweet and simple...

"damnz! if i know ill just release it inside last time before i was married.. i dont even have to fear about her getting pregnant!"

rosak!!!! but at the same time logical!~


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e' sporean blogs: The Question

ZuLdaniaL Listening to: Dinodi - Cinta Tragika

"Nowadays, aku rasa kau dah lain... thanks eh... for meeting me this often..."

"aku dah lain? apa eh? makin cute eh? haha...."

"perasan! u keep meeting me everyday... dulu tak pon... dah kuwa den dats it... terus senyap..."

"entah eh.. aku pun perasan... maybe pasal aku rasa ko dah ubah sikit... aku comfy ngan what u r now... asal eh? ko tak nak kuar ngan aku eh? masih marah pasal dulu?"

"nak marah apa eh? aku pun tahu dulu perangai aku mcm sial... aku paham..."

"ala.. salah aku jugak... ngan kau.. tapi hati kat org lain... aku sedar..."

"its ok lah.. dah lepas pun... ngagis and sedih tuk satu hari.. bukan setahun.. tak kan nak paksa wen u have feelings untuk org lain..."

"dah lah... its in the past.. lets not tok bout it..."



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Tuesday, January 24, 2006

e' sporean blogs: Mungkin

ZuLdaniaL Listening to: Anuar Zain - Mungkin

mungkinkah cinta lama berputik kembali?

pada masa kini... aku kurang pasti... banyak persoalan di minda ku yang tidak mudah dijawab... ku tak mahu terburu membuat keputusan... ku pernah melihat zaman silam mu... dan aku tahu selok belok mu... susah menerima mu sebegitu...

mereka kata... kau telah berubah... dan aku melihatnyer dgn mata ku sendiri.. tapi bolehkah seseorang itu berubah dan remain dat way.. atau kah seseorang itu berubah hanya untuk seketika.. dan di masa kelak... kembali ke perangai lama....

banyak lagi yang harus aku menilai... buat masa kini... persoalan tetap jadi persoalan...

ikut cita rasa hati... ku rasa kalau ku memilih dari mu LAGIK... aku akan sesal satu hari nanti...

ini pun.. aku rasa jerr lah kan....


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Sunday, January 22, 2006

e' sporean blogs: Paranormal Birthday

ZuLdaniaL Listening to: Hazrul Nizam - Kaulah Segalanya

Paranormal Activities

its another weekend... its another saturday night... after much ponderings and considerations... the peeps decided to go out venturing into the world of the unknown... the world of the unexplainables... in search for the one and only... GHOSTS!

our chosen location this time was an abandoned hospital located at view rd....

all i can tell u is that it was once a hospital.. i couldnt find much information about it ove on the internet... but nevertheless, the moment we stepped into the building... words like, "admissions" and "medical record" labelled the various rooms in the building.. it would be stupid enough not to believe that it was once a hospital...

initially, we were kinda saved by some of the peeps' instinct when we were walking along the up slope... the slope at a certain point of time separated into two paths... one which was full of over sized grasses and the other a clear path that seemed to lead to nowhere...

some including myself predicted that the hospital would be the path of the over sized grasses... but i think it was the instinct and fear of some that it was not the route.. besides.. it looks too creepy from the looks of the path...

so we decided to take the clear path... and walla! it is the right one... phew!

i dont know bout the rest... but i wasnt even slightly scared when i saw the building.. nothing creepy about it... i guess old changi hospital seemed more scarier than this...

so we walked ard... typical hospital looks... wards.. wards.. and more wards... never get to find the mortuary...

so the highlights of the whole event was when we spotted a group of chinese entering the compound... so they too were venturing out for that same thing... and we r gonna give them a great time...

we practically crawl, tip toe our way from point to point to prevent ourselves from being discovered... and when the chance was perfeect for us to hit.. epul and i decided to scare the group with a scream and appearing suddenly above them...

but just too bad.. it only freaked the girls out and not the guys.... Boringg!~

at the end of it none actually saw anything.. compared to old changi hospital... this was of no match... but maybe it would be good for those who are very weak hearted... just to get the adrenaline pumping...

Birthday Bash

so my dearest niece, Isadora turned 1 year old on the 17th of Jan 2006... here's a lil post dedicated for her...

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Happy

1st

Birthday

Isadora

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Saturday, January 21, 2006

e' sporean blogs: The Conclusion

ZuLdaniaL Listening to: Ja Rule, R Kelly, Ashanti - Wonderful

The SMS

so now it seems like im the egoistic bastard.... the selfish one... u had ur point.. and i had mine... if u r thinking im treating u differently from others... let me just snap u out of it.. i dont.... its all up to you to understand what is going on in my mind...

and i dont deny how irritating it can get... i do understand what u r going thru... but what can i do bout it?? i rarely do send out sms for a start... most of the times i call instead of sms-ing... coz in the first place... sms-es can cause misunderstanding... lets just put it.. i simply believe.. sms is the root of all problems...

most smses doesnt initiate from me... many could vow to that... arhhhhh.... this topic will never end... i can continue my point of view and u continue urs.. at the end of the day.. we still wont see eye to eye... lets just drop the whole topic...

The Engagement

i attended paul and farah's engagement party at Bianco.. lame seh having to attend a function when u know most of the people there would be foreign to you... so i dragged siti along with me...

initially, the party was kinda low on the mood... but things soon picked up when there was a change of music.. when i first stepped in.. they were playing chinese songs mind you.. mana lah aku paham!...

free flow of drinks... wooohhhooo!!! on the house... me and siti really made use of the free flow... its once in a few occassions where u get free flows of drinks anyway... we were quite bloated after awhile... we enjoyed our free flow of....
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FRUIT PUNCH!

ermmm... didnt i tell u that i dont drink liqour anymore?? surprisingly siti too didnt... according to her.. since im not drinking.. shes not gonna... GREAT!

anyway.. we didnt last long in there.. i think im no longer used to the lightings and loud music... makes me kinda dizzy...

so we left the party pretty early...
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Friday, January 20, 2006

e' sporean blogs: Injustice Slendering

ZuLdaniaL Listening to: Taufik Batisah - One Last

[ meant for someone, you should know who you are ]

shall not have any names in this entry... i dont wanna be too direct infront of people.. but the person whom i am referring to would know who im referring to...

you send me a couple of messages... those forwarded messages... that doesnt need any reply on my part... a few of them over a period of a month plus...

and now u r telling me why have i not been returning ur messages?? gosh... which part of the message should i reply..? should i sms back: " yup.. received ur forward messages.. thanks. "... is dat it?

and furthermore... ur messages comes in when im bz at work.. when im training... there is just simply no time to actually reply whatever it is u want me to reply...

and to aggrevate things further... u compare in a way that i wouldnt do such a thing when a particular someone message me instead... do u have proof? i dont think so.. just for your info.. its the same for everyone.. i dont choose favourism in my replies... if an sms requires a reply.. i would... if not.. it'll remain in my inbox... end of story...

and u put it in a way that i dont bother replying anything at all.. if dats the case.. would i even bother to reply ur msn messages... grrrrrrrrrr....

i seriously recommend dat next time u msg me with sentences like... "where are you?"... "how are you?"... "what are you doing?"... well at least i do have something to reply about...

u said... "so much so for treating you as a friend..."

gosh... i still dont get what is so wrong when i dont reply to forwarded messages...

and now u r ignoring me totally... not replying to any of my questions.. u commented that all guys are the same.. a waste of your time and money... if u seriously felt dat... by all means...

i think its all just an injustice slendering and stereotyping on ur part... u did not evaluate the whole situation... furthermore.. im not those kind of people who would reply to any forwarded messages...

watever it is... i will still stand on my ground... and sorry for being harsh on my words.. but i guess i just need to get things straight...

i seriously feel this is all just too kiddish to even talk about...

maybe this was what has been "fishy" for me since last night... someone is simply unhappy with me over something... and now the fishiness feeling is simply... gone~
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Thursday, January 19, 2006

e' sporean blogs: Sniff! Sniff!

ZuLdaniaL Listening to: Candy Lo & Wang Lee Hom - Hao Xin Fen Shou

the organ dats part of us - The Nose

its an essential part of our daily life.. imagine not being able to smell wat we eat... imagine how tasteless the food would be...

well of coz.. there are times where we hope that organ of us doesnt work.. lets take for an example.. when someone farts and its smell is just too unbearable... you just simply hope u dont smell it in the first place...

we can also take food as an example.. lets say u dont like durian... [ i do.. i love it A LOT!]... and the smell of that exotic fruit can just make u puke... u wished ur nose didnt sniff it in the first place... hmphhh.. seriously i pity people who dont like the smell.. eg. my elder and younger bro.. i symphatize with their fate... missing out on the best fruit anyone can have...

smell - one of our senses... really works wonders in our everyday life...

smell does not only literally mean to the nose and what the nose sniffs... it can be used as an idiom... a famous example... " I smell something fishy "

it just simply means u have an instinct that something is just not quite right... but u have no definite answer or confirmation to that feeling...

i smell something fishy going on in my life now... but could not just poke my finger into the whole thing... im clueless!!... hopefully its not something major or bad... yet to find out.. and the answer lies in the hands of someone...

hopefully i could burst the bubble... and victory would be mine... - I hope~ in a good way....
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Wednesday, January 18, 2006

e' sporean blogs: Expectations

ZuLdaniaL Listening to: Merah - Melihat Kau Dari Sini

woke up early morning.. positive mindset... set an expectation to be met at the end of the day... went thru the whole day.. looking forward to meeting the expectation that was set... at the end of the day.. expectation not met - FAILURE

was i wrong to set an expectation in the first place?... maybe i shouldnt in the first place.. coz in the end.. i have myself to blame for the failure...

maybe i shouldnt expect much after all...


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Tuesday, January 17, 2006

e' sporean blogs: Drag out of Bed

ZuLdaniaL Listening to: Damasutra - Seribu Bayangan

ive had enough of office hours!

its the same thing day in day out.. wake up in the morning... to go to work.. knock off from work... hang out with my friends till bout 8... go back home.. watch tv.. surf the net... update blog and at the end of it im tired... so off to bed... its the same thing the next day...

i just find it sick waking up to go work and go home half exhausted and go off to bed... a repeated cycle for the weekdays...

how do you ppl who r working office hours cope with that life...

i badly need some adjusting..

for now.. i wanna go back to team... i wanna do shift work.. work at night and see what most people dont see... i want it back now...

when is it gonna be the 27th? ok ok.. dats a bit far to ask for... when are the weekends coming??

i want my late night outings back...

grrrrr......
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Monday, January 16, 2006

e' sporean blogs: Cravings = Pregnant?

ZuLdaniaL Listening to: Craig David - All the Way

Yesterday, i had an unusual craving for bubur pulut itam! and to think of it, the craving came only during the wee hours of the night... obviously, i couldnt do anything for that craving.. apparently, all shops are supposedly to be closed by that time.. duh!~

so, today after work, i went out in search for bubur pulut itam... grabbed herman along to accompany me to have our desserts... he was also wondering wats up wit me and pulut itam.. seriously i dont know.. it just comes into my mind..

maybe it bcoz my sis is pregnant and im sharing the cravings for food that sometimes she has... hmphhh... could be possible... sibling sharing her symptoms... nothing is impossible... hehe.. yeah rite~

so herman and i went straight to amk central where he knew there is one shop selling it... by the way... it sucks.. not nice at all... still the best would be one that my mum makes.. but its the hassle of doing.. just dont want to bother her with my stupid cravings...

to you all - any idea where to grab a bowl of fabulous pulut itam??
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Sunday, January 15, 2006

e' sporean blogs: Merapz Siol!

ZuLdaniaL Listening to: Don Omar - Dale Don Dale

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Friday, January 13, 2006

e' sporean blogs: Butter and Sugar!

ZuLdaniaL Listening to: Kahitna - Takkan Terganti

myth or truth? you decide...

i used to have the mentality that when theres a cut or an ulcer on ur mouth... you put some butter and sugar and the swell would not be bad and the wound would heal faster... i dont know where i heard that from...

but my friend had to burst the bubble!

"Butter and Sugar?? Dat one you spread onto ur bread and eat!"

so my mentality on wounds concerning the mouth was wrong eh? so he advised me to put salt instead... helps to join the skin together...

so i decided to ask a Rina.. someone au fait with medical...

"Salt! NO!!!! dat would cause infection!"

wrong again!!! my friend also anyhow give advise!.. maybe hes just like me.. just a mentality with no scientific proof watsoever...

i was supposed to get some medicine from the pharmacy which she recommends... but looking at the time yesterday... where got pharmacy dat is still open???

decided to use bonjela temporarily for the night.. which is actually for ulcers... but wat the heck...

apart from all these above.. i would also like to conclude some findings about wounds.. [Rina, correct me if im wrong]

what to do when u had just gotten a cut??

as the blood is flowing out, wash the wound a bit... subsequently, use a clean tissue paper and press on the wound to stop the blood from flowing.. dat would cause the blood to clot on the layer... this helps prevent bacteria from being in contact with the interior of the wound.. so there would be no infection...

heres a lil update on my cut...

the swell seems the same... but better as i can now converse much easily than last night... however now it appears theres pus forming or something on the wound... dat got me freaked out... i always freak out when theres injury on any part of my face... wahaha... well... of coz its time to visit the doc...

and the doc conclusion... infection.... dats strange... so fast.. within a day..

the doc infd that the mouth is the easiest to get infection as the mouth has a lot more bacteria than any parts of the body...

dats a fact dat u guys might want to take note...
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Thursday, January 12, 2006

e' sporean blogs: Cut Lips

ZuLdaniaL Listening to: Pretty Ricky - Grind With Me

Look at the picture and tell me what do you see??

3 cuts and a swollen lip....

aouch!

dont bother asking wat happened... it just happens too fast to actually know wat happen... but the realisation of blood flowing non stop from my mouth after multiple spits... was already sending my head spinning...

and it was only later that i realised that my bottom lip was cut...

and now its swollen... hmphhhh... just like the africans american.... SEXY! watever~~...
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Sunday, January 08, 2006

e' sporean blogs: Three Weeks

ZuLdaniaL Listening to: Jay Z n Linkin Park - 99 Problems

Starting from tomorrow till 3 weeks down the path of 2006... i will be embarking in something new in my course of work... something unexpectable coz mentally am not prepared... it will be 3 weeks of hell.. that is the feedback received from those who had undergone through it...

i might not have the time to update.. so pardon me... i might be tried after all the hell that i receive for the 3 weeks...

but again im going with an open mind.. nothing is impossible anyway...

so here's to DTT... here i come..

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Saturday, January 07, 2006

e' sporean blogs: No More Tears

ZuLdaniaL Listening to: Kiss - Because Im a Girl

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Friday, January 06, 2006

e' sporean blogs: Enough is Enough!

ZuLdaniaL Listening to: Sean Paul - Like Glue

"sumpah???"

"rabak!!! members pun tak nak bilang..."

"siaper ah???"

"gini ckp brothers??"

enough... enough... my lips are sealed.... im not gonna reveal anything... u can go the whole day asking bout it... but im just gonna be dumb bout it...

maybe somethings are better left unsaid... lets just not complicate matters...

one of us once said, "hidup aku.. aku nyer hal.. korang tak yah masuk campur"... maybe i should agree with wat he said... as for now...

u can ask.. i wont stop... and i have the right not to answer....

id rather seal it.. than having to tell a lie to u guys...

dosa tau!

when im ready to say.. i would... as for now lets just pretend u didnt realise anything... lets all just pretend...

to the peeps...

... stop with all the questions coz my lips are sealed!

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Wednesday, January 04, 2006

e' sporean blogs: The Next Step

ZuLdaniaL Listening to: Fuad n Mira - Bila Rindu

being in love and finding the right one who loves u back the way you should is more than anyone could ask for... when everything else doesnt matter as long as you know that ur the other half is by ur side... isnt it such a nice feeling to have someone who cares about ur well being...

so after being in love and all... whats the next step in line to take?? engagement? or just go ahead with the marriage?

personally, ive got it all figured out if im in that situation... a grand engagement would definitely be out of the question.... i dont find an engagement necessary in the first place... if im ready to settle down.. ill just go ahead with the marriage.. there'll be no doubts bout it...

but yet again if some people insist that at least an engagement be held first... ok.. no prob... but ill make it simple.. between parents to parents... an exchange of rings... like what the malays say.. stakat ada ikatan... well maybe ill invite just my gd friends...

and when the time permits... and situation arises for the need of a wedding.. then... we'll go ahead... a grand one?? i might consider... its once in a lifetime anyway rite??

well 3 of my gal friends, whom i was once very close had found their perfect match...

and they have decided to move a step ahead...

i got an overseas call recently... thats weird.. i answered and to my disbelief.. it was my poly mate who had shifted to Germany...

it was heartening as we were not able to meet up before she left for Germany to work.. and I was held up at work when I was supposed to send her off at the airport... basically we have not met each other for a year plus... and it was really a pleasure getting to tok to her again...

after updating each other bout life... she finally said... "I called you actually to say that im getting married next week..." ... I was dumbfounded... i was happy that my close friend is settling down but at the same time... it just seemed too fast...

so apparently, she's getting married in Germany and would only come back to Singapore in June or July... and hopefully when she comes back.. we'll be able to spare our busy schedule to meet up... coz it really has been a long time...

and if dats not enough for a day... i learnt bout another of my squad mate's engagement on the same day.... i was surfing around and came across my friend's multiply site... and jeng jeng jeng.. gambar pertunangan... members tul.. tak jemput!... well... tak leh salahkan.. we drifted apart... and the whole gang kind off just separates themselves away...

i called up my friends who knew her... sofian(adeq) n sofian(along)... both too were unaware of the news... further questioning ard... none knew bout it.. so she didnt invite any of us.. i wonder why... but what the heck.. MEMBERS AH!!!

a day later.. another squad mate called... ingatkan nak ajak pi clubbing?? but no!!!... she needed my address... she's getting engaged too...

hers is rather unique as i know her boyfriend is a chinese... and its good to hear that the guy is willing to convert into a muslim in order to continue their path in life together....

so they moved on...

2 of the peeps are also planning on moving on in a year or two... ill update on that when the time comes...

as for now.. to the 3 friends, my poly mate and 2 squad mates, best wishes to u all.. Cheers!

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Monday, January 02, 2006

e' sporean blogs: Birthday and Anniversary

ZuLdaniaL Listening to: Lonestar - Amazed

02 January 2006

a date to remember....

on the said date... we celebrated two occassions... something to mark the opening of 2006... something worthwhile to reflect ourselves upon... something to remember...

FUNCTION 1 : Bai's Bdae 'Bash'

the peeps... made a last minute plan to go for a karaoke session... epul, bien and myself were at naz's place for some jemputan for nadra's cukur rambut... when we thought of the idea... we didnt really had anything planned out for Bai's bdae bash anyway...

kalau ikutkan hati... we feel like going down to HRC for reggae nite... but i pulled away from the plan... epul did the same thing... as for bien... he anything goes...

APPOLO CENTRE... the venue... as per usual...

before i proceed...

FUNCTION 2 : 10 Years Anniversary

on the very same date... 10 years back... 3 strangers came together... introduced one another... and 10 years down the road... they are still best of friends...

Bai, Shah and myself were the said 3 strangers...

although initially i wasnt in their very good books.. simply bcoz i gave them the kerek attitude... "apa jerr!! sejak bila aku kerek!"

it was not only like close to 2 years later that we adapt to each and individuals style...

10 years had thought us a lot... we gone through shits together... we know each other in and out... and i would agree that we r not at all perfect... there are times when we get pissed bcoz of the attitude... but we learnt to compromise.. and knowing each other for 10 years.. its all rather expectable when the attitude was given...

so here's to 10 years of friendship...

so nothing could be better than a group photo of the peeps at the karaoke room to mark the end of the day....

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