Friday, May 06, 2005
e' sporean blogs: What Goes Around Comes Around
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" The hardest thing to do in life is to watch the one you love love someone else "
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I dunno why i am still stuck wit Rina despite knowing the fact she is with someone else... why is it that i find it hard to let her go? i know i am in love with her... this is not the first time i felt love... but this time its just different.. it just feels difficult to move myself away... friends have been telling me... be wary.. she might just lead u on... its not the first time such a thing happens in my life... i know the feeling... i know how it hurts.. but despite knowing all that... why am i still stuck here waiting for nothing?...
ppl ask... why am i in love with her out of the others whom i know currently? i cant really give fantastic reasons... i keep pondering... why? and today i finally figured out.. if i can answer why i love her... means i am using my mind... and now since i have difficulty actually figuring the reason... isnt it because i am using my heart?? all i know when i am with her... i just feel that it feels so right... there is no buts about that....
everyday, every moment, i just felt sad that i am loving someone else's.... maybe its a retribution for myself... something that i have to repay for my past sins?... am i being rite? i talk to her everynite... i go out with her like it doesnt felt wrong at all...
been pushing with questions like... today i was out with her... and somewhere during our conversation... i shoot out this question... " Do u love me? Yes/No? ".. and her reply... i will not answer that question... what does that mean... is she uncertain?? or she wants to say no but just do not want to hurt my feelings.. or she wanted to say yes but is shy... so which is which??...
one thing i pray for now is dat.... if she is really out to lead me on... please just do not lead me on to far...
2 comments
he' blogs @ 10:56 PM
2 Comments:
Being someone who has lots of experience,I advise you not to put too much hope. I've been like Rina myself and although there's no two persons on earth that think the same thing, do take this relationship lightly coz if you go further, you break your heart sooner. :) U take care! Be wise..
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se.cre.t lo.ve aff.ai.r, at
May 07, 2005 6:49 AM
thanks hallie... i am really not hoping much...seriously... i have sort of drawn my line when it comes to her... but just unsure of where i stand in her life...
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