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Friday, August 25, 2006

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a ride back home turned out to be one dat i will never forget...

i thought i would turn angry if I ever bump into you out on the street... i thought i would flare up.. i thought i would lose all my senses.. i thought i would never be able to forgive you...

2 years back.. i was still hoping that our paths would cross each other.. somewhere soon after.. i prayed that we wouldnt... i thought it wouldnt be a pretty sight.. i thought we would end up in a heartbreaking conversation... i thought we would... but it didnt...

all those parting memories seemed so vague now... anger and rage dat i once felt seemed to have been lost through out the years...

i had no recollection of the hurt nor did i have a good recollection of you..

i do not deny... the year dat u left... i was like a lost soul... a part of me practically died... the soul was roming aimlessly... as much as i prayed for your return.. god never answered those prayers of mine...

a year passed... and somehow... instead of god.. devil showed me to a path.. i think i was too frustrated that all these while.. god never answered any of my prayers... i followed dat forbidden path.. and for another few more years.. i wasnt wat i had always imagined myself to be...

god didnt give up on me.. he showed to another path... i side tracked from the forbidden path and feel more at ease... and i'm still walking through that path and hopefully never to sidetrack back to that old path again..

i think its time i finally let everything out from my chest...for once...

for a very long time... i had decided to walk on and never turn back to the past.. i realise now.. i do not hold any grudges against you... not anymore..

i appreciate now... those times that u caused me undesirable pain and misery.... it actually thought me to handle human emotions.. and having the strengths that i never thought i would have.. and those times that u broke my heart into pieces.. it gave me a chance to learn more about life.. making mistakes and building it all over from scratch again...

in life.. we are given 3 options: needs, desire and obsession...

my only mistake was to love u as an obsession... dat is to love u like crazy.. like no other.. when in actual fact... i should be loving u as my needs...

i do not know wat lies ahead of me in my life.. or whom i shall meet along the journey... whatever happens then.. is just another learning process in my life dat i have to go thru...

the simple hi and smile that i gave when our paths crossed at the traffic light junction says all of the above.. and if you do happen to read this out on the internet.. i just want u to know.. dat IF ever our paths crossed again.. dat would be the day dat i look up to u as a fren who had thought and showed me a great deal of life experiences and lessons...

without u.. i wouldnt have made it to where i am today...

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he' blogs @ 5:09 PM

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now tht is wat we called life.the neverending cycle of learnings.Gd that u know wats gd for urself ... for nobody knows except u

By droopyy dopeyy laffing, at August 26, 2006 12:21 AM

true true... nobody would be able to make a difference in dat persons life except for that person himself...

By Mr Danial Herambleson, at August 26, 2006 9:32 AM

its good to know tt u have come terms with some parts of ur past.

sometimes,even thou ur past may be a "dark" one,but without our dark past,we wouldnt be as wise as what we are now.

hearing wad others went thru is never the same as u goin thru it and learn from it.

cheers :)

By Anonymous, at August 28, 2006 2:38 AM

azy >> i believe dat no two experiences are the same.. its the person involved are the ones dat makes a difference..

By Mr Danial Herambleson, at August 28, 2006 3:30 PM

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