ZuLdaniaLListening to: Toni Braxton - Spanish Guitar
i can never be an angel who could "satisfy" everyone around me... i can never be the good one who takes into considerations of other feelings at my own disadvantage... i can never be dat guy who could give u all smiles and yet deep down.. im frowning at myself... i just cant...
sometimes i just had to be crude with my words to just make people see the whole picture.. and more than often.. i stepped on the wrong foot... i said words dat shouldnt have been there in the first place...
me: fuck lah... stop! i dont want to hear your story... she: huh? me: i mean.. he fucking dont get it does he?? you already told him to just fuck off.. and after all that he is still coming back for more... im sick of hearing it again.. he is one fucking asshole who dont understand simple english! she: wat can i do seh... ive already tried ignoring him.. and he would still talk to me... and if i dont talk to him.. he would make my day at work one dat is worst then hell... me: come on! one person has to be the bad guy here.. and it has to be you!! coz he fucking dont understand! you want to please him.. make him happy... at the expense of ur own unhappiness?... for fuck sake... ppl at work are talking bout u.. dammit! she: urghhhh!! u fucking dont get it... me: fuck ah! gimme his number.. i give him a piece of my mind... she: dont want arh... it will definitely affect my work... i still need his help most of the time to liase with other people... me: ok... then just let ppl talk then... if u r comfortable with people saying dat u r sleeping with him.. then be it!!!
i lost my cool once again...
and more than often.. i felt even worst than when it first started...
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